[emotionally_drained]

I control this is my thing the only thing I have I can decide to do or not eventually maybe I will be gone good I hate me I hate the world

[Miswimmy1]

((((hugs)))))

[emotionally_drained]

Hugs bsck

[eskielover]

Maybe you need to look for other things to control in your life that can make the world that has treated you so bad go away so that you can end up having a better world, one that you can enjoy & not have to deal with an ED.

I know that I left the past I had 5 years ago.....what surprised me was that the person I felt I turned into wasn't the real me....the real me came out as soon as I left that horrible past....know it was the real me or it would have taken a lot of work to make any changes to become the me I am if I wasn't really this to begin with (wow, hope that makes some sense).......in other words, we aren't what the world around us has made us into...that's a person with an ED......that is caused by the bad environment/abuse you have or do experience.....but that's not the real you.....the one that doesn't need that kind of control & who can just live in life without that feeling that way......that is the life to aim for....not for having no life at all.

But I do understand....that's where I had hoped my anorexia would take me also.......I didnt even really understand at that time (I was 44 years old) what a bad situation I was really in....looking back, I realize way too much how bad it was & I am thankful I survived....looking back from my place of almost freedom.

[emotionally_drained]

Originally Posted by eskielover

Maybe you need to look for other things to control in your life that can make the world that has treated you so bad go away so that you can end up having a better world, one that you can enjoy & not have to deal with an ED.

I know that I left the past I had 5 years ago.....what surprised me was that the person I felt I turned into wasn't the real me....the real me came out as soon as I left that horrible past....know it was the real me or it would have taken a lot of work to make any changes to become the me I am if I wasn't really this to begin with (wow, hope that makes some sense).......in other words, we aren't what the world around us has made us into...that's a person with an ED......that is caused by the bad environment/abuse you have or do experience.....but that's not the real you.....the one that doesn't need that kind of control & who can just live in life without that feeling that way......that is the life to aim for....not for having no life at all.

But I do understand....that's where I had hoped my anorexia would take me also.......I didnt even really understand at that time (I was 44 years old) what a bad situation I was really in....looking back, I realize way too much how bad it was & I am thankful I survived....looking back from my place of almost freedom.

Makes slot of Denver thanks xxx