[precious things]

MAY TRIGGER



Just not doing well today. Already purged and now my face is a swollen mess. My weight has been flucutating all over the map the last few days ( it s way up today and thus, the premeditated purge....). Just feel huge and look like a puffy mess. I have little faith I can regain control for the rest of the day.....

Sorry, I think I need support...I feel huge and out of control and its not even noon.

[AngelWolf3]

I so completely know where you are coming from. Last week I was so happy because the scale said one thing, and now just 5 days later, without a real change in what I am doing, it says something else not good.

I send hugs your way, and hopes that you find some rest from the out of control feeling...is there anything you can do to distract yourself in a healthy way? Like a walk, or blasting some music, or typing really hard on a keyboard (I don't know why, but that seems to help me to hear the furious keystrokes...? weird I know)

Anyway, sorry if none of those suggestions work, I know once the thoughts are loud and in the forefront, it is so extremely difficult to push them down again.

I just wanted to show support ;you have always been so kind to me.

[precious things]

Thanks, Wolfin! I am so frustrated because I made it through turkey day without indulging - never touched a leftover, was able to walk outside daily and boom- my weight is way up. I don't understand it. I have nagging urges to do something really self-destructive like hit all the fast-food places and well, you know ( I haven't done that in several years so its a weird urge). I think it feels like i am losing the weight war so why not pile on the misery.

I am trying to distract myself, as you suggested. Might do some online shopping. I had thought of another brisk walk but I swear, I am one of those people that bulks up with any exercise

[AngelWolf3]

oh man, me too! I did the poll about do you eat more when you exercise, and yep, I sure do, and I weigh more when I exercise too, probably because muscle weighs more than fat, (but that doesn't help when I'm on the scale, lol)

I totally hear you about the weight thing too! I didn't go overboard on Gobbley gobbley day (picture the Swedish chef from the Muppets saying that) and really ate like usual, and same thing. Maybe it's the gravitational field on this planet...ha ha ha, bad joke. I figured since we were both "good" during the holiday, it has to be Earth, and not us, that has the problem.

Online shopping is good! It is Cyber-Monday!