struggling and off the rails

I've been dealing with bulimia for a few years on and off but the past year its gotten worse. There has always been such a negative impacted on food for myself because of how i used it in the past, emotional eating and other things, Its becoming a real struggle at the moment, every time I eat I feel so guilty and horrible, I will go make myself sick and if I cant get it all up I get so angry and upset with myself. The effects its having physically and mentally are really draining.
I know I need help but I'm too scared to go on own, my partner does know but we are in a long distance relationship and he just doesn't quiet understand how hard it is etc, which he will say that himself, also that he'd come with me to the doctors but it'll be a few months before he is down again. I feel at the moment that I have lost all control and I don't think I can cope that long.

Can you go to community health and ask for help?

I can relate. It's a horrible illness where you briefly feel in control but are totally out of control. Even in seeking help it's still hard. I talk to my pdoc about it sometimes and try and 'fix' myself but there is no easy fix really. Asking for help is a huge step, it took me years before I was even honest about my ED.. it is a start though, I hope you have somewhere you feel comfortable that you can go to.