[Arethusa]

Even though I know that I am nearly underweight and thus really really do need the extra pounds I still can't help but freak out about gaining. this means that my pants are gonna get tighter, my thighs are gonna start to rub together, but still I try not to think about it. it's only a few pounds and truth be told I do need to gain the weight back... it's just so hard sometimes because gaining weight makes me feel like a failure

[wiltedxdaisy]

It is hard, I know. I am in recovery, and it's still hard for me, but I try to remind myself that when I look in the mirror, what I am seeing (and even feeling!) is not reality. It is my disordered mind reflecting back what it wants me to see and feel. Also, I try to remind myself of things I can do now that I am eating and at a more healthy weight, such as being more active and doing fun things (such as sports) with my Fiance, which he loves to do. Hang in there and remember that you deserve recovery, you deserve to happy and healthy and to have you life back.