inpatient and now relapsing (new member)

I am a 26 yr old female. I was born in 1980 with multiple physical disabilities.

In 1988 I started Self-Injuring and August 2005 is when I started making a serious effort to stop Self-Injuring (My one year anniversary for no Self-Injury will be January 9th, 2007). Aug. 2005 is when my Eating Disorder started.

From August to October I dropped over 40 pounds. My parents did not believe me when I told them I thought I might have an eating disorder so I started looking for therapists on my own. I finally found one spring of 2006. August of 2006, my therapist and I started talking about more intense programs as I was still loosing weight.

Finally in November I knew I needed help quickly. From November 22nd to December 19th I attended an inpatient eating disorder program and stabilized. I was admitted with Anorexia NOS, Depression/Anxiety, PTSD, Rape/Molestation and Self-Injury. I was discharged on the 19th because of insurance reasons. My doctors fought to keep me however at $1800/day I was not able to afford to stay on my own (w/o insurance).

I have started looking for IOP’s (Intensive Outpatient Programs) and Transitional Homes that take insurance. So far it looks like my insurance will pay only for inpatient programs.

I have been out of inpatient a little over a week and am starting to relapse with my Restricting. Is this normal? There are no EDA meetings in my area. I know if I do not get help with the Restricting soon I may switch over to the Anorexia again. Should I try to go back to Inpatient, try an IOP or try the free programs like EDA groups online? I am open to any and all suggestions as I am at a loss and feel like my control over ED is slowly slipping out of my control.

Thanks!

ArH

Honestly, I have no idea what you should do. You definitely need to find an accountabity partner (if you can't get back to an inpatient program) especially since there are no meetings in your area. Other than that I'm not sure what to tell you.

(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

I hope you find the help you need.

Good luck