[CalmingOcean]

And low and behold my ED mind is telling me- you are definitely NOT sick enough for this, what are you doing, why are you wasting this women's time.

Faaaaaaawk I hate my head.

It makes me want to down play real issues. Ugh. 28 minutes...

[MoxieDoxie]

Let us know how it went!

[boydisappearing]

Hopefully it went well!

[CalmingOcean]

Ugh you guys. Just ugh.

She said 'you are very sick'. Just like that.

Puh.

I am not even 'underweight' but she thinks I should be 10-14lbs heavier. Trust me, I should NOT be 10-14lbs heavier. I am 5'1 and 110lbs.

I think she just had some boring *** cases before and needed to spice it up.

Okay... Maybe that's not true. She is apparently a world renowned ED specialist and is 67 and dedicated her life to saving people.

But she said I was probably too sick to be taken at a treatment centre (4 hours away) that focuses on trauma. I don't want to go to a damn treatment centre!

Ugh.

Anyways. She put in a rush for me to see some ED psychiatrist or something rather at the hospital, instead of 6 months it should take 2, but she will specify it is urgent.

Whateve. Maybe I can get to my goal weight by then.

[boydisappearing]

Originally Posted by CalmingOcean

Ugh you guys. Just ugh.

She said 'you are very sick'. Just like that.

Puh.

I am not even 'underweight' but she thinks I should be 10-14lbs heavier. Trust me, I should NOT be 10-14lbs heavier. I am 5'1 and 110lbs.

I think she just had some boring *** cases before and needed to spice it up.

Okay... Maybe that's not true. She is apparently a world renowned ED specialist and is 67 and dedicated her life to saving people.

But she said I was probably too sick to be taken at a treatment centre (4 hours away) that focuses on trauma. I don't want to go to a damn treatment centre!

Ugh.

Anyways. She put in a rush for me to see some ED psychiatrist or something rather at the hospital, instead of 6 months it should take 2, but she will specify it is urgent.

Whateve. Maybe I can get to my goal weight by then.

I'm sorry it was unhelpful. I've had some bad doctor reactions too, but it's a shame that an ED "specialist" doesn't understand.

I'm on a waitlist for outpatient treatment right now too and I kind of hope they remember my name and speed it up - I was on their shortlist for a while.

[waggiedog]

Dear CalmingOcean, or anybody even thinking of ''down playing'' any ED..................................DO NOT DO THIS!! PLEASE. I've spent the last 33 years suffering from every ED known and unknown! Made them up myself when they didn't even exist!! As a result I have a poor old body which shows up in various tests to be that of a 70 year old (I'm 56), anything from brittle bones to teeth fallen, or falling out. I'm around the size and height you are CO, so please don't down play that either. It's more about attitude, toward yourself and your physical appearance (and that of other people) that is the telling thing. I only attended three sessions at a very good ED clinic and I wouldn't go back. Why? Because they wouldn't ''allow'' me to continue to starve myself ''better'', I was actually expected, with therapy, to ''eat'' my way out of an ED and back to good health. It's Obvious, but when ED is shouting into your ear no no and you listen, you'll never get on the road to health. It's got to be worth a try, and yes, you may well fall off the waggon, but try anyways. HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXX

[CalmingOcean]

I don't know how I let it get so out of control this time

[touchingthestars]

EDs are very very confusing. Especially for the person who has it. Sometimes you need that leap of faith, that "an expert on EDs told me I'm sick. She is an expert. She knows. Even though I don't believe her at ALL- she knows more than me and it is worth my while to trust her". Its really really hard to say that to yourself and then stick to it- but it can save your life. Please try.