[BeautifulDisasters]

So a few years ago, I stopped eating. I lost a bunch of weight.
I got better, kind of. But now I am on a new medication that makes me not hungry... (its a side effect) and my brain is screaming that this is the perfect chance to start again.

My nurse has basically told me to "just eat" ... As if I can do that.
Basically, I AM going to starve myself, and I really don't care enough anymore to do anything about it.

[healingme4me]

That sounds unpleasant to deal with. Unpleasant to suffer through.

Did your nurse suggest any quick or easy ways to quickly get some nutritional value into your system?

Do you feel nauseous eating? Are you also suffering with depression? What type of medicine are you taking, that suppresses your appetite?

[eskielover]

I would strongly suggest a different medication NO MATTER WHAT!!!!. I know when I took prozac, that was the first medication that totally took away my appetite & there was no way I could force myself to eat & the stress & depression I was going through normally was something that I would loose weight with anyway & feeling suicidal at the time didn't help.....that was back in the mid 1990's.

My pdoc at the time changed the med from prozac to wellbutrin & that had the same effect on me.....ended up in an ED treatment center & constantly in & out of the medical hospital for several years after that.

There are always other options for meds though one's that cause weight gain aren't a good option either.....but I would seriously work with your pdoc/md to get you on a med that will work for you. In my case...there wasn't a med that didn't have horrible side effects & I chose not to go the med route after having a parkinson's like reaction to one of the meds along with completely stiff joints from another so that I couldn't even walk......not eating is just as serious of a side effect & it needs to be addressed in a better way than "just eat".

[behappynow]

Originally Posted by BeautifulDisasters

So a few years ago, I stopped eating. I lost a bunch of weight.
I got better, kind of. But now I am on a new medication that makes me not hungry... (its a side effect) and my brain is screaming that this is the perfect chance to start again.

My nurse has basically told me to "just eat" ... As if I can do that.
Basically, I AM going to starve myself, and I really don't care enough anymore to do anything about it.

I feel like I am in the exact situation as you. Like, I know it's bad for me to not eat, but I only eat maximum 300 calories per day, that too because one of my medication requires 300 calories of food to be taken. I enjoy being thin, and I want to be thinner.

[eskielover]

I enjoy being thin, and I want to be thinner.

So did I which was why I really didn't want to start eating again on top of the fact that my suicidal feelings were telling me....oh, anorexia is better than any other way of dying because it doesn't place the sui stigma on the family.

But the truth is that those medical hospital stays because I was passing out all the time involved IV nutrition which involved a central line which is a surgical procedure that involves them inserting a needle into your artery next to your heart. It was that or a feeding tube & I wasn't about to do that either. That was just to keep me alive which I wasn't too keen on at that point in time either.

Loosing weight & wanting to be thinner is not wise & later on in life, it's horrible to look back & see the NEEDLESS damage that you have done to your body if you are alive at all to enjoy that thinness that you so desire.

There is nothing about anorexia that is enjoyable & passing out all the time isn't either & ending up in the hospital all the time isn't enjoyable either. We see anorexia from the outside as something rather awesome until you get trapped in it & you end up allowing it to control you while you are the one really needing to be in control which is usually why you got there in the first place.

[behappynow]

Originally Posted by eskielover

So did I which was why I really didn't want to start eating again on top of the fact that my suicidal feelings were telling me....oh, anorexia is better than any other way of dying because it doesn't place the sui stigma on the family.

But the truth is that those medical hospital stays because I was passing out all the time involved IV nutrition which involved a central line which is a surgical procedure that involves them inserting a needle into your artery next to your heart. It was that or a feeding tube & I wasn't about to do that either. That was just to keep me alive which I wasn't too keen on at that point in time either.

Loosing weight & wanting to be thinner is not wise & later on in life, it's horrible to look back & see the NEEDLESS damage that you have done to your body if you are alive at all to enjoy that thinness that you so desire.

There is nothing about anorexia that is enjoyable & passing out all the time isn't either & ending up in the hospital all the time isn't enjoyable either. We see anorexia from the outside as something rather awesome until you get trapped in it & you end up allowing it to control you while you are the one really needing to be in control which is usually why you got there in the first place.

Yeah, I guess you're right. Thanks for that reply, I feel like I needed to hear that.

[Lemonpledge]

I kinda feel like this. I started to take wellbutrin in March and it completely took my appetite away. I literally would go 2-3 weeks at a time without any food intake and literally only a few ounces of liquid. I never told my doctor what I was doing and he was worried about the extreme weight loss and he admitted me to the hospital and they couldn't find anything wrong. Except my gallbladder was pretty much dead. I don't ever say anything to anyone. In 4 months I have gone down 90 pounds. And now I eat some but only like 3-4 hundred calories a day. I am still on wellbutrin and lipitor which I also has a side effect of weight loss.
This is the first time I have let this out. Damn I went from a size 16 to a size 4. I can't ever go back so I make sure I stay at the same weight. My husband tells me I am too skinny, I don't think so. I am at a 20 bmi I don't think that's too small

Crazy thing, no one has asked me if I have an eating disorder. I literally melted In front of everyone and no mention of it.
My blood test I get every month shows a drop in hemoglobin and WBC and all other labs are all over the place. One good thing since March my cholesterol has dropped 62 point. From 271 to 209.

[doyoutrustme]

I think you know that this is very unhealthy. I completely get being able to lose all that weight being like a dream, but you are killing yourself. Get help.

[alicetailor]

Skipping meals is not the only way to lose weight. Since you are on medication, you must eat. You can consider indulging in some physical activities or exercises to burn up the fats, if you really want to lose weight.

[passionfruit3]

My best friend is on a self destructive path and so are you all it will lead you is to a locked ward or forcefully tube fed

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