[Maximohs]

The last months I've eaten much less food than I usualy did. I don't eat breakfast, not lunch, and sometimes not dinner either. I feel like I can't eat when others are near me, somehow... I often go looking around for food to eat, but whatever I find I almost never eat it. I've lost about 4 kg within a month, I know it isn't much but anyway... It confuses me, cause I didn't use to be like this before.. I'm that kind of person who can eat as much as I want without gaining weight, and i really ate much before. I ate during the whole day, always had something in my mouth, and now, it feels like someone turned off something, cause I'm almost never hungry anymore, and when I am, I feel like I want to puke because I didn't have anything to eat for a long time, and that makes me eat nothing when I'm hungry.. I've throwed up once a while after eating much and when I felt kinda guilty for eating so much.. My friends bets wether I'm going to eat or not, and that makes me even more confused and sad, and therefore I don't eat when they are around. This confuses me a lot, cause it didnt use to be like this, it just came like boom.. Everyone tells me how thin I am, but somehow I wont believe it, and I feel bad everytime I look in the mirror, I dont look skinny at all, maybe it's just something people say.. I'm also very depressed and stressed right now, maybe that got something to do with it..? Please give me some advice and comments..

[Direction]

Sounds like a lot of confusion - glad you were able to talk about it.

Are you seeing anyone professionally regarding this - you mentioned stressed and depressed...something to consider.

[Maximohs]

Im not, but I have thought about it. I dont like talking about my problems, and the thought of standing face to face with some person trying to help me makes me scared. I don't like other persons giving me comands and comments, I always makes it turn out to something negative.. I have no problem talking to my problems with strangers, it's so much easier... But please, give me some comments, now I ask for it, and I can't make it negative, I hope.. Arh :/

[Direction]

I understand the scared part very much - it took a lot for me to go see someone...some many unknowns.

I think the most professional people will offer suggestions and question thoughts you may have. Just like the support you see here, you will see with a therapist.

Issuing commands - I haven't really experience that...

Keep thinking on it...