[Blue_Bird]

I've been doing well I bought a digital scale a couple days ago, I haven't had one in years, and I was extremely conflicted over it when I was trying to decide if I should purchase it or not. I wanted it so I could keep track of my weight at home a little more often than every two months at my doctors, I didn't and don't have the intention of obsessing with it but I was scared it might lead to that so it sat in it's packaging for three days. I opened it today and weighed myself. I was so anxious before doing it but I simply got on saw my weight and got off, it was like it was no big deal, I didn't panic, freak out or start obsessing with the ED thoughts. I am so proud of that, it was simply a number and nothing more, it didn't impact my mood or emotions which was astounding.

Also, I ordered the "The Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Skills Workbook for Bulimia" so I'm looking forward to getting into that when it arrives.

I hope everyone is doing okay

for my evening meal yesterday I had southern fried chicken (so a repeat of friday really, just not from KFC this time)

again 8 peaces

I also had some digestive biscuits and a whole tub of candy

[Blueberrybook]

I'm a bit tired. Not sure if it's being off Wellbutrin or outdoor allergies.

I got up early this morning and ran. And ran. And ran. It was one of those days I felt like I could keep going forever. Ran too much for what I ate I'm sure.

I have a love/hate relationship with scales. I like knowing the number, but if it's higher than I want it to be, I set up grouchy for the entire day. If it's lower than I expect it, I'm happy and lose sight of the fact I have to maintain a certain weight to stay of of the hospital.

Not much appetite today. Some nausea. But I did have a piece of applle pie with vanilla ice cream as a snack this afternoon.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by megabytesteve

I managed to not smoke weed SO no munchies.

Drinking a bottle of water before eating is a great tip!

Hi and welcome to this thread. Yes it does give munchies, I had them so much when I smoked it. Thanks for the tip.

[Blue_Bird]

My DBT Skills Workbook for Bulimia will be coming in the mail today

another day, another massive overeat...

currently it's fruit jellies

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

My DBT Skills Workbook for Bulimia will be coming in the mail today

Sounds like something to look forward to. I have gotten lots of help from workbooks on various topics. I love to keep learning, too.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

another day, another massive overeat...

currently it's fruit jellies

So, what is happening in your life besides what you've eaten? It would be nice to get to know you better.

Every time I try to start eating healthier, it quickly dissolves into another binge and I am so disappointed in myself for yet another failure ...

After 47 years (since I was 11) of yo-yo & back and forth, you'd think I'd've figured out how to get it right by now!

[eskielover]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

My DBT Skills Workbook for Bulimia will be coming in the mail today

DBT was the most useful therapy I have ever had. I learned so much. It is nice to be able to apply it directly to the issues we are having. It helped me process my PTSD & then it helped me process my bad marriage & my dysfunctional childhood.....which in turn helped me gain control over the anorexia that kept hitting me every time my stress became more than I could handle.

Hope this helps you as much as DBT helped me

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Pfrog

Every time I try to start eating healthier, it quickly dissolves into another binge and I am so disappointed in myself for yet another failure ...

After 47 years (since I was 11) of yo-yo & back and forth, you'd think I'd've figured out how to get it right by now!

I think Eating addictions and disorders are the hardest things to deal with because unlike other addictions we cannot stop eating; we have to eat to live. I've had all kind of eating problems, disorders and addictions most of my life and I am 61. Nothing to feel bad or ashamed about. I just take it one day at a time and try to do the best I can and then some days I say "the hell with it!" I get tired of worrying about food all the time.

[Blue_Bird]

I guess I should admit I binged.. I didn't purge though.. that's something I guess.

I'm taking a 24 hour break from food. Not going into being restrictive I just feel like my body needs to recover from what I've eaten the past two days

[Blue_Bird]

My workbook arrived, so I'm going to begin getting into that tonight

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

My workbook arrived, so I'm going to begin getting into that tonight

Let me know how it works out for you.

I opened a second bag of fruit jellies yesterday (finished the first one)

second one almost gone

[Blueberrybook]

I am not doing that great with eating or exercising lately.

Yesterday and today, I exercised too much.

Today, I had 2 frozen waffles (plain) with coffee for breakfast and half a bowl of minestrone cup with a cup of Greek yogurt for lunch.

And annoyingly, I spilled some of the minestrone soup, getting it all over the futon cover and making more work for myself as I now have to wash that.

I was already annoyed because I had errands to do in town, and I don't know what was going on, but every time I got on a main road, police were ahead blocking it past traffic lights, so it took 45 minutes to do what could normally be done in 15 minutes.

Think I'm feeling some exhaustion from stopping the Wellbutrin, or maybe it's just too much exercise, too little food. I definitely agree with Lucy on this one; you can't just stop eating. I thought I'd have it figured out by now too. I was diagnosed at 19, and I'm 40 and still dealing with this stupid ED.

[LucyD]

I feel so annoyed right now. Not sure why either just thought I'd vent about it. Everything is starting to get on my nerves. Maybe I need to eat. Haven't eaten since very early this morning. Think I'll do that.

Making something to eat right now and had a bit of something to hold me over. I think I'm just frustrated with trying to lose weight all the time and my weight not moving much because I cannot exercise with osteoarthritis all over and loss of muscle mass in my arms that cause me a lot of pain. Muscle mass naturally decreases over age 30 and then there is all the inactivity I have had. Having debilitating depression for years did not help my body any. Gained so much weight from antidepressants, too. Thanks for reading my vent if you got this far!

[shovelhead]

If my neighbors see me, I bet they think I'm completely crazy. I go outside in my yard area at midnight & jump rope. If there was lights, I'd go running again at night here, on the dirt road I use as my track. I'm really addicted to running now. I think I started about 1 year ago. I got hooked on exercise after I quit alcohol. I always switch addictions, it seems.

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by LucyD

I feel so annoyed right now. Not sure why either just thought I'd vent about it. Everything is starting to get on my nerves. Maybe I need to eat. Haven't eaten since very early this morning. Think I'll do that.

Making something to eat right now and had a bit of something to hold me over. I think I'm just frustrated with trying to lose weight all the time and my weight not moving much because I cannot exercise with osteoarthritis all over and loss of muscle mass in my arms that cause me a lot of pain. Muscle mass naturally decreases over age 30 and then there is all the inactivity I have had. Having debilitating depression for years did not help my body any. Gained so much weight from antidepressants, too. Thanks for reading my vent if you got this far!

I always feel annoyed/irritated from hunger. But I also pound caffeinated coffee constantly, too. Which causes irritability, omg. U can still drop the weight u want to without exercise. I'm sorry about your health stuff/pain. One of my arms got sprained badly last year. I couldn't even put a jacket on without screaming in pain. I know that crap hurts alot. Ive heard antidepressants can cause weight gain. So what did u make yourself to eat? I ate some leftovers I had cooked yesterday. Yeah, I notice I get a blast of energy from food to exercise again.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

I always feel annoyed/irritated from hunger. But I also pound caffeinated coffee constantly, too. Which causes irritability, omg. U can still drop the weight u want to without exercise. I'm sorry about your health stuff/pain. One of my arms got sprained badly last year. I couldn't even put a jacket on without screaming in pain. I know that crap hurts alot. Ive heard antidepressants can cause weight gain. So what did u make yourself to eat? I ate some leftovers I had cooked yesterday. Yeah, I notice I get a blast of energy from food to exercise again.

Yes, my irritability stopped after I ate something and I had been drinking some pretty strong coffee too. I'm going to make myself some less strong tomorrow. Thanks about my health stuff. Yes, pain can also make us feel differently emotionally. Yes, the antidepressants are bad for weight gain; I guess not all are. The last one I took didn't make me gain but gave me nervousness unbelievable. I had brussel sprouts, mushrooms, a veggie burger and several french fries.. I hope your night goes well for you.