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#841
I've been doing well I bought a digital scale a couple days ago, I haven't had one in years, and I was extremely conflicted over it when I was trying to decide if I should purchase it or not. I wanted it so I could keep track of my weight at home a little more often than every two months at my doctors, I didn't and don't have the intention of obsessing with it but I was scared it might lead to that so it sat in it's packaging for three days. I opened it today and weighed myself. I was so anxious before doing it but I simply got on saw my weight and got off, it was like it was no big deal, I didn't panic, freak out or start obsessing with the ED thoughts. I am so proud of that, it was simply a number and nothing more, it didn't impact my mood or emotions which was astounding.
Also, I ordered the "The Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Skills Workbook for Bulimia" so I'm looking forward to getting into that when it arrives. I hope everyone is doing okay __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#842
for my evening meal yesterday I had southern fried chicken (so a repeat of friday really, just not from KFC this time)
again 8 peaces I also had some digestive biscuits and a whole tub of candy |
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#843
I'm a bit tired. Not sure if it's being off Wellbutrin or outdoor allergies.
I got up early this morning and ran. And ran. And ran. It was one of those days I felt like I could keep going forever. Ran too much for what I ate I'm sure. I have a love/hate relationship with scales. I like knowing the number, but if it's higher than I want it to be, I set up grouchy for the entire day. If it's lower than I expect it, I'm happy and lose sight of the fact I have to maintain a certain weight to stay of of the hospital. Not much appetite today. Some nausea. But I did have a piece of applle pie with vanilla ice cream as a snack this afternoon. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#844
__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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Legendary Wise Elder
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#845
My DBT Skills Workbook for Bulimia will be coming in the mail today
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#846
another day, another massive overeat...
currently it's fruit jellies |
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#847
__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#848
__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#849
Every time I try to start eating healthier, it quickly dissolves into another binge and I am so disappointed in myself for yet another failure ...
After 47 years (since I was 11) of yo-yo & back and forth, you'd think I'd've figured out how to get it right by now! |
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#850
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Hope this helps you as much as DBT helped me __________________ Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this. Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018 |
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#851
I think Eating addictions and disorders are the hardest things to deal with because unlike other addictions we cannot stop eating; we have to eat to live. I've had all kind of eating problems, disorders and addictions most of my life and I am 61. Nothing to feel bad or ashamed about. I just take it one day at a time and try to do the best I can and then some days I say "the hell with it!" I get tired of worrying about food all the time.
__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#852
I guess I should admit I binged.. I didn't purge though.. that's something I guess.
I'm taking a 24 hour break from food. Not going into being restrictive I just feel like my body needs to recover from what I've eaten the past two days __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#853
My workbook arrived, so I'm going to begin getting into that tonight
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#854
__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#855
I opened a second bag of fruit jellies yesterday (finished the first one)
second one almost gone |
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#856
I am not doing that great with eating or exercising lately.
Yesterday and today, I exercised too much. Today, I had 2 frozen waffles (plain) with coffee for breakfast and half a bowl of minestrone cup with a cup of Greek yogurt for lunch. And annoyingly, I spilled some of the minestrone soup, getting it all over the futon cover and making more work for myself as I now have to wash that. I was already annoyed because I had errands to do in town, and I don't know what was going on, but every time I got on a main road, police were ahead blocking it past traffic lights, so it took 45 minutes to do what could normally be done in 15 minutes. Think I'm feeling some exhaustion from stopping the Wellbutrin, or maybe it's just too much exercise, too little food. I definitely agree with Lucy on this one; you can't just stop eating. I thought I'd have it figured out by now too. I was diagnosed at 19, and I'm 40 and still dealing with this stupid ED. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, , propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, omeperazole I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. --Robert Frost |
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#857
I feel so annoyed right now. Not sure why either just thought I'd vent about it. Everything is starting to get on my nerves. Maybe I need to eat. Haven't eaten since very early this morning. Think I'll do that.
Making something to eat right now and had a bit of something to hold me over. I think I'm just frustrated with trying to lose weight all the time and my weight not moving much because I cannot exercise with osteoarthritis all over and loss of muscle mass in my arms that cause me a lot of pain. Muscle mass naturally decreases over age 30 and then there is all the inactivity I have had. Having debilitating depression for years did not help my body any. Gained so much weight from antidepressants, too. Thanks for reading my vent if you got this far! __________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#858
If my neighbors see me, I bet they think I'm completely crazy. I go outside in my yard area at midnight & jump rope. If there was lights, I'd go running again at night here, on the dirt road I use as my track. I'm really addicted to running now. I think I started about 1 year ago. I got hooked on exercise after I quit alcohol. I always switch addictions, it seems.
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__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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