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There's some stuff that's been going on with me lately that's started to concern me a lot, and yeah. I don't even know if this is the right category for this, as I have no idea if this is anything related to eating disorders, anxiety, or what. But yeah. It's related to eating, so I guess it fits.

These last couple months, I've been having some issues with eating.
During moments where I've gone out with my boyfriend, there's been some times lately where I've randomly felt extremely nauseous whilst/after eating, to the point I've nearly thrown up every time, but I manage to not do so. It happened today also, whilst I was having a super-shake from Domino's.

At first, I thought this was just my anxiety being a bully, as it's a usual symptom for me to get nauseous whenever I'm extremely anxious or sometimes when having an attack. The first few times this has happened last month, I was quite anxious, I don't remember why as it was a while ago, but yeah. I didn't think much of it. I thought it was just anxiety.

But last week, it happened again at Domino's randomly. I wasn't anxious at all. It just popped up randomly. But as soon as I stepped outside for a minute or two to get some air, I was fine. So once again, I thought it was still anxiety, like you know how it sometimes remembers the environment and situation that the anxiety occurred, so when in a similar scenario again it strikes? I don't know if that made much sense, but yeah, hopefully you get what I mean--?

But now, after today, we were in a different environment (the park on my street), I was in a good mood, but it still happened. It's not the food, because the food being consumed is different every time this happens, now I don't even know if it's still anxiety or if it's something more concerning. Unless it is anxiety, as during the time this occurred, both he and I were talking about an idea of mine which had turned out to be incredibly stupid and a fail (the idea to bring the shakes and a pizza back to my home, which is literally a couple streets away from the shops, which the whipped cream and shake itself obviously melted a lot). We were joking about it, but yeah. Would that trigger my anxiety though? I'm very unsure. My anxiety seems to be triggered by the stupidest of things (eg; majority of social situations/events, crowds/being circled around, talking to people, if my boyfriend is feeling depressed or something especially if I feel at fault or like I can't help as much as usual, when I feel I've stuffed somethings up whether it's something I've done, said, or if I've unintentionally hurt someone, etc).

This isn't the only thing though.

These last few weeks, I've had to have smoothies in the morning for breakfast before school, as I'd get that feeling in the mornings too before school, and smoothies are just easy and fast to get down, and it's better than having a couple slices of toast or something and not being able to even finish it. Once again, I thought it was just anxiety, I still do, but I'm quite confused now.

Is this anything I should be too concerned about, or is it just my anxiety?--

I should probably mention too, for the majority of this year, mainly the first six months, I pretty much fasted most the time, as I never had the appetite. I hardly ate, but still ate enough to not concern anyone. Usually this would be a small breakfast like a slice of toast and half of dinner, to which I'd say I'm full and leave the table, and I would never take food with me to school. I was going through a very rough time mentally in this time. But since things have improved and I've been MUCH happier, I've been trying to eat more, but slowly. Now it's the smoothie, I take 3 muesli bars with me to school, sometimes I'll eat something when I get home like toast or something, and I have dinner, which I'm actually able to finish most nights now. So yeah. Although even that still isn't much at all, but it's all I feel is possible for me currently. That's a reason why I feel like it could be something more also.

I've been noticing too, before an event or plan, if food is involved in a way, I've been a lot more anxious beforehand lately, to the point that I sometimes feel attacks coming on or at least my hands start trembling.

Any opinions?

[Skeezyks]

Well... honestly I don't know. But I noticed no one had replied to your post. So I thought I would. My thinking with regard to this is that, first, you should probably have yourself checked out by your regular general practice physician just to make sure there's nothing medical going on here. Then, assuming all is well physically, you could look into eating disorders evaluation and also consider seeking some mental health services for your anxiety issues (assuming you're not already doing so.)

In the meantime here is a link to an article by our host Dr. John Grohol on the subject of eating disorders:

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/eating-disorders/

Also, here's a link to PsychCentral's Eating Attitudes test which may help you to determine if you should seek mental health services for an eating disorder:

https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/eat.htm

And finally... here's a link to a PsychCentral listing of eating-disorders-related on-line resources:

https://psychcentral.com/resources/E...ders/Articles/

Hopefully some of this information can be of some benefit. I wish you well...

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I've come to a conclusion, as of recent events, this is most likely my anxiety worsening. Ignore this post now