[Blueberrybook]

Went to a family reunion today. Gag. Most of the people I didn't know. Some of those I did know, I wish I didn't. Got lucky and won a stupid mirror decoration with the family name (my mom's maiden name, so it's not like it fits well in my house since while I may be my mom's child, I had my father's last name growing up and then I married my husband's last name.). I'm not even sure who in their right mind wants a mirror you can't use with a last name you never had even if it is in your ancestry. What's the purpose? Some random knick-knack, and lately I'm trying to declutter my house. Worse, it was made by the aunt I hate (failed to protect me from sexual abuse from her ex husband when she easily could have and has a God awful long list of why she didn't, including now claiming complete amnesia of her entire 1st marriage). I already threw the stupid thing away. It's not even useful, pretty, or serving any purpose.

Purged for the first time in forever It's been at least 8 or 9 YEARS. Did it practically automatically too, without thinking about it. I'd always had a very hard time purging (though I was diagnosed as having purging type anorexia way back but the purging was through exercise and rarely by making myself throw up). Only a handful of times was it ever easy and automatic for me. Then, I go years and years not purging at all and suddenly, it happens out of the blue, didn't even overeat (didn't undereat either). Weird.

Stupid family reunion. I don't know the lady who volunteered to host the thing next year, and I don't think I will be going.

[eskielover]

Wise choice not to go. No reason to go to something triggering like that