[shovelhead]

Thank goodness my scale went back down. I'm really hungry right now but I'm intermittent fasting for at least 2 hours more.

[fallaximago]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I hope today goes better for you. I can't remember, do you see a therapist or not?

Hi! Thanks for your reply. I see a therapist but I'm not sure it's working, it's partly my fault, though, I have such a tought time with apathy that I struggle with following suggestions. I need a change of pace.

[Blue_Bird]

I'm frustrated, I'm disgusted with my body, I feel like I would be happier if I lost the weight I gained the past couple months, but I'm actually happy now with my life aside from the disgusted feeling. Idk, it's confusing sometimes.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by fallaximago

Hi everybody. Yesterday I ate like crazy: sandwiches, croissants, biscuits, the works. I'm battling both overeating and smoking so at times I feel hopeless and a total slave to these addictions. I also need to drink more water, I used to drink lots of it every day, then at some point it just became boring. Crazy, I know. I will try to do my best today.

Welcome. I got into some overeating the other night. I, too, am battling smoking now. I got some nicotine lozenges from the dr. They help.

[fallaximago]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Welcome. I got into some overeating the other night. I, too, am battling smoking now. I got some nicotine lozenges from the dr. They help.

Thank you. I have never tried lozenges nor any other remedy so I think that I'll have to do it cold turkey once again. Was there something that triggered your overeating episode? If it's ok for me to ask, of course.

[Blueberrybook]

Ran a lot today on autopilot, a bit less than yesterday but skipped breakfast. Got groceries and prescriptions, prepped the raw veggies we snack on or that I toss with lettuce for a salad.

Was going, going, going all morning. Ate lunch and watched a show recorded on the DVR.

Tired now, but I need to pick my daughter up from school soon. Wind is blowing hard out there and skies are cloudy and gray; it is going to be no fun waiting for the walkers.

I hate the cold.

[LucyD]

Originally Posted by fallaximago

Thank you. I have never tried lozenges nor any other remedy so I think that I'll have to do it cold turkey once again. Was there something that triggered your overeating episode? If it's ok for me to ask, of course.

I was frustrated with my living situation. It's going to change soon but not soon enough for me. I have problematic neighbors and they will be moving this month, thank God. Thanks for your concern.

[shovelhead]

Just ate a delicious & nutritious lunch! Had 1 small piece frosted cake, too! Went out and jump-roped hard. It was a good workout for now Food Is Fuel

[shovelhead]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Ran a lot today on autopilot, a bit less than yesterday but skipped breakfast. Got groceries and prescriptions, prepped the raw veggies we snack on or that I toss with lettuce for a salad.

Was going, going, going all morning. Ate lunch and watched a show recorded on the DVR.

Tired now, but I need to pick my daughter up from school soon. Wind is blowing hard out there and skies are cloudy and gray; it is going to be no fun waiting for the walkers.

I hate the cold.

I got all my raw veggies I love at store yesterday. Broccoli is my favorite now, cuz it's softer. I wish I could run as hard as u do.. I do one HIIT run now. I used to attempt 2. But added jumprope. Does running make u super hungry sometimes?

[Blue_Bird]

Possible trigger:

I overate and want to purge so badly, I can't though. I haven't in 3 months and I promised myself I wouldn't again after 5 years of it and developing GERD , terrible teeth, and the fear I got after that of causing any further more problems health wise that may be much more severe than the ones I've had. I'm very lucky. But I'm so horribly uncomfortable right now.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by shovelhead

I got all my raw veggies I love at store yesterday. Broccoli is my favorite now, cuz it's softer. I wish I could run as hard as u do.. I do one HIIT run now. I used to attempt 2. But added jumprope. Does running make u super hungry sometimes?

Strangely no. Many days I run and either forget to eat breakfast or don't think about it until around 11 AM, then I'm like, "It's almost lunchtime, why bother?" Though I always do have a few cups of coffee in the morning. The rest of the day, I'm fine, hungry, but normal type hungry.

[katydid777]

I try to eat good food, and not a lot of junk. I guess my thing is I don't eat much. My H has always commented on my weight when I gain as much as 5 pounds. So for the last almost 27 years I have been critical about gaining any weight, and if anything I try to loose.I have a bad habit of eating like a bird, and almost never eat breakfast.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Possible trigger:

I overate and want to purge so badly, I can't though. I haven't in 3 months and I promised myself I wouldn't again after 5 years of it and developing GERD , terrible teeth, and the fear I got after that of causing any further more problems health wise that may be much more severe than the ones I've had. I'm very lucky. But I'm so horribly uncomfortable right now.

Stay strong. I know what you mean about ED issues causes a lot of dental expense. OMG, I have had to have so many crowns from teeth breaking off. In my case, because of the lack of nutrients from the ED, I started clenching my teeth super hard at night and grinding them. Even when recovered (not engaged in ED behavior), I can't stop it; it's a permanent habit now. I finally got a dental nightguard around 9 months ago and finally can sleep most nights without removing it in my sleep. I hope it helps.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by katydid777

I try to eat good food, and not a lot of junk. I guess my thing is I don't eat much. My H has always commented on my weight when I gain as much as 5 pounds. So for the last almost 27 years I have been critical about gaining any weight, and if anything I try to loose.I have a bad habit of eating like a bird, and almost never eat breakfast.

That's a horrible thing for your H to say. Have you told him it bothers you and the ED thoughts? He does not sound supportive at all; in fact, I'd say he sounds very unsupportive.

I don't want to end up living with this 27 years. I suppose I already have 21 years.

Luckily, I do have a supportive H. He starts nagging me a lot if he thinks I look too frail or that I am beyond too thin. I have a small frame, so gaining or losing 5 lb. goes a long way with me - from looking healthy to malnourished.

[Blue_Bird]

Thanks Blueberrybook

I'm working on DBT skills. I just need to keep at it. I feel really good when I distract myself with reading or drawing, also Netflix is helpful! It's the initial anxiety and discomfort that really gets me whether it's a craving for binge food or urges to purge, the biggest part is getting through that. The problem is I always immediately act on my feelings. When I'm able to distract myself for long enough, the feelings fade so I'm trying to do that more

[LucyD]

Had chocolate cupcake this morning as part of a meal. I have to have something sweet once in awhile besides the darn berries. I get tired of being so limited in what I eat at times. Not going to beat myself up about it.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Had chocolate cupcake this morning as part of a meal. I have to have something sweet once in awhile besides the darn berries. I get tired of being so limited in what I eat at times. Not going to beat myself up about it.

Glad you're not going to beat yourself up about it! Definitely nothing wrong with having a treat now and then

[shovelhead]

Going as low calorie as possible, today.

[MickeyCheeky]

((((Everyone))))

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by LucyD

Had chocolate cupcake this morning as part of a meal. I have to have something sweet once in awhile besides the darn berries. I get tired of being so limited in what I eat at times. Not going to beat myself up about it.

LOL...I gave my daughter chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast