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Grand Magnate
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#61
Cold and windy here today. Ran this morning. Managed a good breakfast, having some trouble finding the appetite for lunch.
I see the T this afternoon, and I hope she will help me come up with a plan to survive the holidays & my daughter's birthday (Dec. 14) in one piece. It's stressful enough to have all those gatherings, the obligatory huge annual fight between 2 of my aunts, and then you have to throw food into the mix. Thanksgiving, birthday party & cake, extended family Christmas meal, daughter's actual birthday, New Year's Eve (stress of go find someplace to see fireworks). __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#62
I have such a hard time not doing things in extremes
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#64
So far, everything's good food-wise. I really need to get busy or else I'll be craving food faster than I can think.
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#65
Need to work on going to sleep at night. I don't have trouble sleeping it's just that I like to stay up. I got 3 hours last night. I know that it's super important to get good rest to reduce stress.
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#66
Been eating more than my plan says I should. I will go back to the plan. This is just so hard! My plan is boring and so limited. I should learn to use spices to make things taste better; can't have salt so I'll find spices I can have.
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__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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#68
I haven't had anything to eat yet, but it is only about 9:30 am. I will have something later on.
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#69
Ugh. Lunch time already. Some days meals come around too fast. Some days I have more appetite than others. For some reason, not so much right now, but I had a cinnamon raisin bagel with margarine around 11:30, no time to finish my coffee, had to get my daughter from school because they had early dismissal today.
Thought I'd push lunch off until 1 PM, but it's already 12:45 and still am not hungry. My allergies are also very bad today. I woke up with a congested nose & sinus headache. I took a 24 hour allergy pill yesterday but can't remember what time, but I think it's wearing off, itchy nose, watery eyes, sneezing. Think I will wait until evening to take another allergy pill as I turned in super early yesterday (8 PM) and zonked out until around 4 AM this morning, so I know I can't have taken any medication after 8 PM yesterday, including my night meds. The Seroquel and trazodone just knock me out. Struggling finding words again...Wellbutrin does that to me. Soup is done in the microwave. Will have lunch, maybe lie down. I have an essential oil diffuser and several oils. They all relax me though I will have to look up which one might best help outdoor allergies. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#70
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#71
Headed in to restriction the past couple days. Took a nap a little while ago and woke up with some pains in my heart. I ate and it went away...... really freaked me out...
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Even if it went away, who's to say it won't be back again and worse? Please get checked out. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#73
Both my daughter & I aren't feeling well. I'm not too hungry for dinner, but I've got to throw something today soon. Stupid allergies and sinus infection. I feel like crap.
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#74
I have an appointment with my primary doctor this month and I'll bring it up
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#75
My OH buys bags of chocolate candies trying to see if I'll eat the bag, I think. Wtf..
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#76
Today I'm fasting for a medical exam. I really want to eat but I know I can't, even though the thought keeps replaying in my head. By the time I'll be done it will be lunch time. I really want to stay focused and eat a decent amount of food but not more. I'm also retraining myself to drink lots of water.
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#77
I see my pcp later today. I weighed myself and they are going to weigh me today. I want to have something to eat this morning but afraid my weight will be higher by the time I get to the dr. in the afternoon. I'm getting tired of worrying about this stuff.
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#78
Try to stay strong. I need to convince myself that, if I'm hungry, I need to eat something healthy like a fruit or a yogurt in order to avoid repercussions on my weight. You could try to do the same. Do you drink enough water? Anyway, I'm sending you a hug
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#79
Thank you. I ate breakfast and lunch. Decided a few pounds more doesn't really matter. We all fluctuate during the day and days. I do drink enough water but today needed to drink some more. I've had a lot of coffee, though.
__________________ One way to get the best out of life is to think of it as an adventure. William Feather Medications: Risperidone-1 mg.daily, Propranolol-20 mg. daily, Gabapentin-600 mg daily, Melatonin-3 mg. at bedtime, Nicotine Lozenges-2 mg., Vape Liquid-3 mg., One A Day Vitamins,
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Grand Magnate
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#80
Ran too much again. Just finishing breakfast at noon. Maybe around 1, 1:30 I can have lunch.
Anyone else have problems with scales & obsessive weighing? I had gotten so much better for a long time (didn't even weigh myself daily, maybe once a week or every couple of weeks), but now I am having the problem of weighing myself every time I use the bathroom even though I know my weight is most accurate first thing in the morning, not during the day when I've been eating & drinking (not talking alcohol, things like water, Diet Coke, coffee). And after running, if I sweat a lot (usually I do), I will weigh less than my first weight of the day, and the stupid ED loves it. I wish scales had never been invented. Why do we let a number define & determine our self-worth? It doesn't make sense and yet I can't stop it __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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