[Mountaindewed]

My doctor said on Monday that I don’t have an ED. My therapists aren’t so sure. I have been drinking a ton of water to help me with my anxiety. And then the water fills me up. I also get distracted by books and other things and I lose track of the time and I forget to eat. I just suck at eating but I’m not sure its classified as a disorder as much as me just being lazy and forgetful.

[Mountaindewed]

The mirrors at the stores were super distorted. It was discouraging. Even my chest looked off and I’ve been super happy with the results. My mirrors at home are fine so I thought I looked good. Now with work coming up I feel like I have this image to keep up.

[Deilla]

I ate yesterday when I wasn't hungry. I was stressed.

[Mountaindewed]

I ate today but nothing substantial or nutritious. I stayed in my goal though.

[Deilla]

I did well yesterday. So far this morning is good too.

[Mountaindewed]

I ate today so my metabolism wouldn’t become slow. But I wasn’t hungry so I mainly just ate cereal. I haven’t stomached dinner yet. I’m going to eat salmon because it makes your mental health better. At least according to Noom. I gave up on that and I’m just using the tracking part now. The reading was too much to read and comprehend and remember every day.

[Mountaindewed]

I’ve allowed myself to eat more today then I usually would since I feel like I’m too low and I ran errands instead of just sitting in bed all day. I also had stuff at midnight. But I just don’t have an appetite for anything. I did eat though today. But just the usual. I got a package of Oreos for some reason. I don’t usually eat sweets. But they are lemon ones. Lemon cookies and lemon filling. Not any type of chocolate ones. It’s not that I don’t buy that stuff because I don’t have the self control. It’s just I don’t have a desire to eat it. But I did eat a candy bar last night. Not sure why. But meat and sweet stuff I don’t eat much and I think it’s change in hormones. I eat rice cakes a lot but I haven’t touched my chocolate ones. The last time I ate meat that wasn’t little pieces in food was Sunday when I had a couple pieces of pork roast. My mom was looking at sirloin steak at the store and it looked pretty unappetizing.I crave carbs like crazy though.

[Deilla]

I overate a little bit at lunch. I wanted to make sure I wouldn't be hungry again for a while.

been in hospital so not had a whole lot of choice in terms of food.

since I've been home I've only had 2 bags of candy, some chocolate and a steak- I came home yesterday evening, so it's not bad at all

still really hungry though

[Deilla]

I did well today.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m wondering if constipation is causing my lack of appetite. I mean I went a lot a few days ago. Not sure why I’m having upper back and chest pain if it’s constipation. Unless that skateboarding yesterday just really ****ed with me. My mom says she’s worried I’m working myself into an eating disorder because I just don’t eat much anymore. I don’t know. I mean yeah I’m trying to lose weight but it’s just been effortless lately because of the loss of appetite. Even when I tell myself I can go up to maintenance I just cant.

But maybe I’ll go chug some mirolax and whatever that other one is. And as one of my doctors said “everything will just come out.”

[Blue_Bird]

I’m starting to struggle with my ED again. I was recovering for a long while but several months ago I started struggling again and it’s just gotten worse so I’m gonna have to talk to my therapist about it when we talk again. I’m not purging anymore, which is good. But I’m going back and forth between restricting and bingeing.

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[Deilla]

I did some stress eating tonight. I am very upset. I can't sleep. So food seemed like the right choice.

2 nights, 2 takeouts

not good.. but need to fill up after hospital

[Deilla]

I am doing well. I'm not really that hungry.

off my food today. I think I enjoyed my pizza a little too much last night (still feel very full!)

still, I struggled through breakfast and going to have roast lamb for dinner. not sure about many snacks.. I've had 3 or 4 gummies and 2 cookies, but think that will be it until dinner.

[Deilla]

I'm doing okay.

[Mountaindewed]

I ate cereal for breakfast. 2 rice cakes for a morning snack. 2 mini bagels with cream cheese for lunch. Ramen for an afternoon snack, And another rice cake for an afternoon snack. So yeah ramen, rice cakes, and cereal again. The bagels I put in the freezer the other week since I couldn’t eat them all before they went bad. So I took out 2 today. When this first whole eating thing happened right after Thanksgiving I was eating English muffins instead of bagels. Then the English muffins stopped and now it’s turned into bagels. So basically I’ve been eating the same stuff since Thanksgiving and I have a Facebook picture from December 2020 that say “what grocery shopping looks like when you’ve been eating the same foods for 3 weeks.” And the picture is a bunch of boxes of cereal and Goldfish crackers. I have mixed stuff up recently and I’ve even eaten some meat recently.

I bought Count Chocoula, frankenberry, and boo berry cereals today. Since it’s cereal, it’s a safe food. It doesn’t matter what kind of cereal I eat. Although I prefer sweet kinds of cereal marketed towards kids. I opened a box of cinnamon French toast crunch today.

[Deilla]

I'm not eating much. I'm just not hungry.

[MuddyBoots]

Barely ate today. Part of it is depression/low appetite, partly I'm unhappy with the number on the scale. It works out.