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Default Dec 03, 2021 at 03:14 PM
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My mom might have gotten me a regular mountain dew instead of zero. I couldnt tell the diffrence but I drank it anyways. Now I am hoping my pouch of tuna is enough for dinner. I had other plans besides tuna but without knowing if the soda was zero or not I have to stick with tuna. So basically today I either restricted or went slightly above my goal. My mom was like "just splurge" yeah not happening. I just hope my hunger stays as calm as it currently is.

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Default Dec 04, 2021 at 11:17 AM
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not doing well at all.

stuffing my face with christmas candy- and it isn't just that, it only arived this morning and it's almost gone, so.... not doing great at all
 
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I've been on track today but its been hard to get the motivation to eat. I've been eating indvidual wrapped pieces of cheese to make it to my goal. I think its a physical issue again. I go for labs on Monday and I see my doctor on Friday. So hopefully I get some answers. I wish I had a zofran right now though.

I have a lot of stuff I've been saving throughout the year that I want to treat myself to the week of Christmas. I have 4 little plastic dollar store containers full of candy bars, some of them are exotic ones I got online and at international markets. I have a bottle of a fancy brand of eggnog and a few sodas I bought from Ebay. I also have a bag of unique chips I got on vacation in the summer that are still good. Hopefully I can actually eat most of this stuff since some of it has just been sitting since before I moved. I am still working my way through a 30 count box of chocolate paydays I got in April.

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Default Dec 05, 2021 at 04:04 PM
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I took my hungry meds and I got, well hungry. Snacky is more like it. On the postive side I'm finally eating my massive food supply. I've been collecting things for awhile just not eating them. But I went through things today and I gave away alot of stuff and now I know what I have. I still have 5 little plastic containers full of candy though. I also downsized on my tea collection and I kept mostly just my exotixc boxes from Russia. I still have a ton of stuff though.

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Default Dec 05, 2021 at 05:03 PM
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I've been eating well.

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Default Dec 08, 2021 at 06:36 PM
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I got 2 drinks yesterday from an indian grocery store. One expired in May. I mean it tasted ok but I dont know since I've never had It before. It was flat but maybe it was supposed to be. Then the second one I couldnt tell when it expired but I think in November. Again it wasnt bad but how should I know. I took 2 pepcid so hopefully it helps. I mean I doubt I'll get like boutoullism or anything. I just feel like crap right now

My stomach still hurts. I took my sleep meds so hopefully whatever it is, anxiety or a legit stomach ache, will pass by the morning.

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Not doing well again, purged tonight

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Default Dec 09, 2021 at 09:35 PM
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I did good today. I didnt eat any candy. I had a few diet and zero sugar sodas but I also had a couple clementines. I rarely eat fruit. I also had 2 pouches of tuna which have a ton of protein and zero carbs. I was a little over my goal but it wasnt a big deal.

I want to get some frozen tamales in the morning. I have a hankering for them as my mom would say.

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Default Dec 09, 2021 at 11:07 PM
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I looooove tamales. Corn just speaks to me. I think its in my genes.
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b/p'd three times since coming home from the hospital 12 hours ago.... pas bon. And they didn't even dx me with an eating disorder because last time I didn't eat was because of paranoia. This time I heard voices but they were more of the "fat pig dont' eat that tubby" variety. My first doc was a sham who did nothing but give me urinary retention (leading to a foley catheter that dislodged and caused some damage). My 2nd doc was comparatively a saint but to my eating issues all he says was "good luck with the eating issues" on my discharge day. It's not like I lied to them either. Straight up told them "I don't think I need to be here, but my friend is worried about a potential eating disorder and my mom's worried about my lack of sleep" so they called me manic and send me on my way.

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I haven't been doing well. I've been eating a lot. And more often. I think I am stressed. Quitting vaping is making it worse. I just want to eat all the time.

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The ED and destructive behavior right now ing eneral is so bad but who the **** cares anyways

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Yesterday I went to Aldis and I got 3 types of cheese. Then my mom went to walmart and picked up 2 bags of chicken nuggets and some Christmas Hershey kisses from walgreens. Despite having a fully stocked fridge and freezer and food rack I just ate a can of potatos for dinner. But I did eat during the day. I fell asleep hungry and I woke up at 9:30 and I've been up since. I had a 12oz bottle of Coke and a rice cake amd a zero sugar Coke around 10-11. It seemed to have helped. Then I had my 2 large flavored iced teas I got from Sonic yesterday morning. I'm hungry for protein. I have some canned chicken I am going to eat for breakfast. I just have to hold on for a few more hours. I'm not sure how my therapist will react to me being up since 9:30 due to hunger. That is definte disordered behavior.

The thing is I'm not even hungry anymore and I got like 4 minutes of sleep.

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I hate it when I'm avoding the dinner table on purpose but I need something from the kitchen and then someone says "come join us!"

No I wont. I'm just getting water so I can contiune to be hungry in my room

I have 4 boxes of candy bars, 2 unopened boxes of cookies, almost 3 full boxes of little cups of peanut butter and a lot of other stuff in my room and I have some very good self control. I havent touched the candy bars in 2 days and I've had the cookies since Thanksgiving. I even have a bag of potato chips from the summer that are good until January.

When I do eat the candy bars (they are my weakness) I usually eat 2 or 3 in a row and then I stop for awhile. Some I've had since the summer.

My mom doesn't get the amount of self control I have.
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I've been stress-eating like crazy.

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I took a zofran last night and I ate a little bag of chips, some Fritos, a few cookies, a frozen mac and cheese dinner, the rest of my cranberry cinnamon goat cheese, and then an entire thing of baked brie.

I feel weird and anxious right now and I dont know if its from all the cheese or the news or something.
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Ive heard there is something in cheese that makes you want more cheese. Now i want cheese!
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Default Dec 21, 2021 at 10:29 AM
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it's not even dinner yet, and I've all ready had 3 chocolate bars and a full big bag of doritoes (one of those share bags)
 
 
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it's not even dinner yet, and I've all ready had 3 chocolate bars and a full big bag of doritoes (one of those share bags)
That was me yesterday for breakfast. 4 candy bars. Then during the afternoon I ate almost an entire bag of pizza Goldfish and I started a bag of lemon salt Fritos. The bag of Fritos were about the size of the Goldfish. I had a small bag of Lays too.
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I've been eating when hungry.

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