[MuddyBoots]

I purged yesterday and today again after a few weeks of refraining from doing so. I stepped on the scale and was very unhappy with the results. Olanzapine is NOT A weight friendly med by a long shot.

[Mountaindewed]

I hope my therapist like just wont notice the difference from last week? Because its sort of a lot for one week. I don't really know how its happening. It doesnt really seem to be on purpose. Like I am not even really restricting. It seems to be more that I have been grazing and snacking and on healthy stuff instead of eating actual meals lately. I'll be honest with her if she asks though. My mom says I'm not eating enough.

Tonight though sucked partially due to restriction and partially due to laziness. I had a small bag of cheetos and a string cheese for dinner.

[Deilla]

I've been eating for comfort.

[Anrea]

I B/P again yesterday after 13 days of not. This manifestation into high restricting is triggering binges I think. I feel guilty if I eat over a certain amount of calories, and that is just wrong. It's a poor mind set when I should be caring most about overcoming B/P and not worrying about weight. I should be happy with the slow and healthy success I was having, instead of this fast tracking attempt. Back to day 1.


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[Mountaindewed]

She said it seemed like a lot to lose in one week, but what I am eating is actually pretty healthy. We also talked about my anxiety and how its rough for me to eat when I am anxious. I do not sleep well or eat much when I am anxious. But she didn't seem to think it was a big issue. My mom says I am not eating enough though Tonight I am not feeling the greatest physically and I am also anxious. I had a few small things this afternoon for an early dinner. But mostly it was just a decent snack not really a dinner. At least I ate unlike last night.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I've been eating for comfort.

Ive been eating refried beans in a white flour tortilla for breakfast every morning. MAJOR comfort food! But i should probably weigh myself tomorrow. Sometimes beans will pork me up! But there is just something about the creaminess.

[Anrea]

I've reached a plateau with weight, which is on my mind more than is healthy. It's getting easier to restrict. That probably isn't a good tactic for getting over Bulimia. Somehow I've lost track of all the trigger clues and healthy overcoming, and become weight focused. It's strange how this ED is manifesting itself into something new.

takeout 3 nights in a row

it's bad I know, but..

[MuddyBoots]

I restricted today but had a carnation instant breakfast so I guess that's something.

[Mountaindewed]

I've been hungry today but still hanging on. I wanted pizza but I didn't want to go to the store for a Quest pizza and all I have in the freezer are unhealthy ones. So I just skipped it. Maybe I'll go out in the morning.

[Mountaindewed]

I don't know if I restricted or not. I ate my daily amount but I had more soda and coffee then food. So I guess the quality was not good but the quantity was on track. I did get my Quest pizza. I ate half of it and gave the other half to my mom. I'm thinking of eating out tomorow for lunch. It all depends on how I feel in the morning though. At night I get hungry and I google places I want to eat at and then when I wake up at 1AM my stomach hurts and I'm anxious and all I want is a Coke. So we'll see how I feel in the morning.

[Blue_Bird]

I haven’t binged/purged or restricted in exactly 2 months. Very proud of myself. I’ve been eating very balanced.

[Mountaindewed]

So I am off one of my things that can and does often increase my hunger. And one of my meds that decreases my hunger my pdoc increased last Thursday. So right now I'm really struggling with eating and its not on purpose. I'm trying not to have it turn into a full blown issue but I have a really hard time eating when I'm not hungry no matter what I'm feeling emotionally.

[Mountaindewed]

I only made it to my goal because I had to. Not that I was really restricting it was just the same anxiety that turned into nausea again. Kinda hard to tell which is causing what.

[Mountaindewed]

I was accidently low today. I didn't feel like making up for it though since one of the things I watch would be high with pretty much anything I ate except meat which I don't have.

[indigo1015]

Today’s the first day this week I’ve really eaten much; not because I’m purposely restricting, but because I’ve had a nasty case of the flu (not COVID, fortunately) and for the past week the very thought of eating or drinking anything other than watermelon and water has made me retch. Today I had pasta and salmon for both lunch and dinner with cherry tomatoes. Now I’m having some popcorn as a snack.

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[downandlonely]

I used to eat for comfort a lot and gained quite a bit of weight. Overeaters Anonymous Zoom meetings are helping me a lot. I went to a good one today.

I have had takeout 2 nights in a row so not too healthy.

tonight I'm having a roast dinner, and so far today, I've steered clear of the snacks. probably a bad move, because my roast dinners taste like carpet.

[Deilla]

I've been stress-eating. I just bought some soup. I figure if I drink soup instead, it will fill my belly and help me feel good.

[Mountaindewed]

I think I may have figured out the cause of my severe nausea. Now I'm just eating normally and not restricting.