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#561
I ate a bagel and got sick. I ate 5 honey breaded chicken tenders and felt sick. The unsweetened iced tea I drank really did me in. The regular pepsi was fine. The regular mountain dew didnt make things better or worse. I'm going to have a slim fast for dinner only because the idea of actually eating anything else today seems unbearable.
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#562
I B/P 11 times in March! After going 32 days, and 26 days without in Jan. and Feb. But I didn't do anything to try to stop. I didn't read tips and tricks to stop, I didn't watch videos, I didn't prepare for my triggers, and I didn't try to 'ride the wave'. I screwed April up by B/P on the 1st. But that isn't stopping me from getting back on track. I am surprised I did so badly in March, but I was restricting a lot, and used my Birthday week to buy 2 cakes, and some lemon bars.
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#563
Its been tough lately but I've been managing. Breakfast was ok. I had a corn talmale. Dinner will be steak and broccoli. In between I've had a couple Cokes and a Slim Fast. So theres not too much restricting going on today I don't think.
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#564
I started back with the Goldfish crackers again. And now tuna is grossing me out again too. I did eat 2 donut holes today. I've been drinking a lot of sodas and slim fast lately. Mostly thats all I've really wanted lately. Soda and slim fasts and other protein shake. It hasn't been restricting eating as much as just not very nutrituous eating and not craving food. My therapist wants me to eat fruit but I find fruit to be creepy. The only vegetable I'll eat is broccoli. She harps on me about vegetables. Sometimes I just don't want to eat. Its not that I'm not hungry or that I'm restricting its that I just don't feel like eating sometimes. I have not seen her in person in 2 weeks and it will be shorts and T shirt weather and I'm not sure how happy she'll be with me. I have also been anxious as hell though this past week so I have not really felt like eating a lot.
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#565
I honestly just don't really like food anymore. The only thing I really enjoy is non diet soda mainly different flavors of Coke and Pepsi and thats not food.
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#566
My anxiety turned to stomach pain caused me not to be able to eat much today. It was an unusually low amount of food since I always try to make up for the lack of legit food by eating some saltine crackers. But even that was too much today.
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#567
I hate eating in front of people and I know I'm being rude but I don't want to eat easter dinner with my family I'd rather eat a couple pieces of ham in my room and honestly I'm so done with everything at this point I don't care if I'm being rude.
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#570
I've been doing better. I'm not really restricting. I've been hungry but I'm eating enough so at this point I'm just hungry for no reason. But I have been controlling my hunger. I could do with eating less in the morning and more at night though to balance things out better. I am going out of town Tuesday morning until Thursday afternoon. We're going out to dinner both Tuesday and Wednesday night. I haven't been panicking. I've looked at the menu of one place and decided on something and the other place I'm familiar with. I'll just get coleslaw or something instead of fries and only eat half of my meal for both nights and save the other half for some other days. Maybe for lunch Friday and Saturday. I'm not quite sure what to do during the day for food. I do want to get a sandwhich from this fast food place I haven't had in about 3 years. That will be done on Thursday on my way home though. So no clue on Tuesday or Wednesday during the day for food but I'll figure it out.
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#571
I'm not restricting today. I'm eating normally and healthy. My mind feels like I'm restricting though. I'll just have an extra piece of baked chicken and hope that settles things because I am ravenous right now.
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#573
I haven't taken my new med in a couple days and I havent had an issue with pain or with controlling my hunger. I am borderlining restricting if I'm being honest. I only had a few bites of my pancakes this morning but I had a big slushy from Dairy Queen for lunch and I didn't make a fuss about the scoop of ice cream they put in it. I plan on having a slider for dinner. Part of it is on purpose the other part is just not having much of an appetite.
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#574
I didn't do well for a while. I ate all kinds of snacks. I'm straightened up some now.
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#575
My appetite is still managable most days and low other days. I don't think I'm restricting really. I chose almonds and water as a snack today and the lab lady commented on how healthy a snack it was. I really wanted a Mountain Dew but I already had one today.
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#577
I'm pretty hungry because I took a full zofran last night. So far tonight I've been succesful with just grazing on single servings of snacks. I've had soup too so I've eaten actual food as well. I've been wanting to open the bags of green onion Cheetos and pizza Goldfish that I got last week. I finally did tonight but I just had a serving of each. Not like I couldn't polish off both bags right now though. That Zofran is evil regarding my hunger but I really had no choice last night with how nauseated I was.
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#579
I'm avoidng the brunch table because my nephew is having trouble eating for some reason. Its almost like hes showing signs of an ED. But I don't feel like being around all that so I am in my room. But I mean if he doesn't want to eat something and is having a meltdown then I don't think they should force him to. Maybe he needs help or something. But its uncomfortable to hear and I really need to eat myself but I don't want to go grab a plate of eggs in front of all of them right now.
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#580
I've been doing well, have been eating without feeling as guilty. Finding some healthier role models to motivate me so I stop restricting/obsessing about weight loss. It feels so good to finally be having a good go at recovery after all these years. Every time I think about restricting I think back to when I ended up in the hospital due to abnormal heart beat and severe dehydration and feeling like passing out. As much as I sometimes feel like going back to my old habits, that prevents me from doing it because it scares me. I don't want to die of a heart attack or something at a young age, it's not worth it.
I still sometimes obsess about weight but it's a lot less often now, it doesn't consume every second of my life anymore __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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