[Mountaindewed]

I've been taking pictures which I told my therapist I wouldn't do. I also haven't been eating out like I said I would. Partially because of the food itself. But then the anxiety of eating in front of people too. I won't tell her about the pictures but I can't get around the not eating stuff I don't think.

[Mountaindewed]

My therapist has never seen me without a baggy hoodie on. I don't know how she'd react if she saw me in a T shirt and jeans.

Man am I so hungry to the point I'm almost not. I've restricted all day. I'm having fish for dinner in a bit. I've had 4 cups of decaf coffee without cream from the keurig. I got two boxes of Gogurts which just makes it easier to restrict.

[MuddyBoots]

Binged/purged yesterday. I'm really trying, and I'm getting better about spacing them out. It was 4 or 5 days since the last time. Even if it's twice a week that's much better than twice a day.

[Mountaindewed]

The restricting yesterday messed up my sleep last night. Today I ate mostly before 10AM. I had a couple chicken tacos with just chicken and tomatos and a small plain cheese quesadilla for lunch but everything was small and in corn shells instead of in flour shells. And so I'll probably end up not eating anything else today which my therapist would consider restricting since theres more then half the day left. Even though I ate plenty.

They (my mom and therapist) just never seem pleased at the amount I eat or the times I eat when I am eating.

[Deilla]

As long as I'm taking my weekly diabetic med on time, my eating is normal.

[Mountaindewed]

My therapist said that I have to eat whenever I get hungry. Even if I am feeling some other emotion. I had a hard time taking her seriously because she was eating candy or something during the session. She is quite large and my T shirt could probably fit on one of her arms. I know I restrict and have issues, but I also feel like I know a thing or 2 too about weight management after 7 years of managing things.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

My therapist said that I have to eat whenever I get hungry. Even if I am feeling some other emotion. I had a hard time taking her seriously because she was eating candy or something during the session. She is quite large and my T shirt could probably fit on one of her arms. I know I restrict and have issues, but I also feel like I know a thing or 2 too about weight management after 7 years of managing things.

They say when the emotions is heal the body is heal.

[Mountaindewed]

Saltine crackers are like crack. I started using them for nausea earlier this week. But they work to keep my hunger under control too. I've been hungry due to a 5 day med course but I'm eating decently and turning down pizza for dinner mainly because I think I just can't make up my mind when it comes to food anymore. I think I'm hungry for something and then the more I think about it I get queasy. Its just side effects that will go away in 2 days. Hopefully.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm restricting so badly right now my hunger pangs suck. I'm just waiting on the soup to be ready. Maybe I'll try a tic tac or 2.

[Mountaindewed]

Lately I haven't been feeling good or I just haven't felt like eating for no particular reason. Right now I'm more tired then hungry and I'd rather sleep.

[MuddyBoots]

Bulimia out of control. Knuckles literally shredded and bleeding when purging. When I was in the hospital, it was bad but not horrible because I had to somewhat hide it. Now that I'm a pro at not getting caught in this environment, things have spiraled totally out of hand. I don't even know why. I want to cry because I feel like I just don't have a handle on anything.

[Buffy01]

I’m worried about the new medicine will :sadhug put weight on

[MuddyBoots]

3PM and I've not binged or purged. I think I can go the rest of the day. I've got this. I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast, a protein bar after my workout, a veggie burger and a salad for lunch, and I'll have some crackers for a snack and figure something out for dinner later. It's going to be a good, non-disordered eating day.

[Mountaindewed]

I mostly wanted a lot of caffeine today. I was so tired. I made a couple single serve cups of instant Stouffer mac and cheese. Besides that I just grabbed a yogurt and a Jello from the fridge and a mini moon pie. I don't think I really restricted today. I was just tired and under the weather mainly.

[Mountaindewed]

Today was an "opposite of a stress eater" type day. I managed some stuff in the morning. But even trying to jumpstart my hunger by taking my meds early didn't work. So I'm back to the Gogurts for meals which my mom doesn't approve of.

I keep talking about wanting to go to Red Lobster but at this point I'm wondering if I'm just making fun of Project Runway instead of really wanting to go there.

[MuddyBoots]

Binged, but am challenging myself not to purge mostly because I took my meds.

[Mountaindewed]

I'm trying to get up the energy to steam a bag of broccoli for dinner instead of just eating my 3rd pudding cup. I was able to put the scale away last night and I slept good since I wasn't fighting with it and then getting distracted all night.

[Buffy01]

I been fasting

[indigo1015]

I went to an Aqua Zumba class this morning, which was a lot of fun, but also has left me pretty tired and sore this afternoon. I feel like today I’ve been in falling into the trap of eating because I think what I eat will give me energy, and yeah, the baked salmon that I had for lunch is probably okay; the processed carbs I’ve also eaten probably won’t help much though. I need to eat more fruits and vegetables.

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[MuddyBoots]

back to multiple b/p a day