[Mountaindewed]

I've been taking pictures which I told my therapist I wouldn't do. I also haven't been eating out like I said I would. Partially because of the food itself. But then the anxiety of eating in front of people too. I won't tell her about the pictures but I can't get around the not eating stuff I don't think.

[Mountaindewed]

My therapist has never seen me without a baggy hoodie on. I don't know how she'd react if she saw me in a T shirt and jeans.

Man am I so hungry to the point I'm almost not. I've restricted all day. I'm having fish for dinner in a bit. I've had 4 cups of decaf coffee without cream from the keurig. I got two boxes of Gogurts which just makes it easier to restrict.

[MuddyBoots]

Binged/purged yesterday. I'm really trying, and I'm getting better about spacing them out. It was 4 or 5 days since the last time. Even if it's twice a week that's much better than twice a day.

[Mountaindewed]

The restricting yesterday messed up my sleep last night. Today I ate mostly before 10AM. I had a couple chicken tacos with just chicken and tomatos and a small plain cheese quesadilla for lunch but everything was small and in corn shells instead of in flour shells. And so I'll probably end up not eating anything else today which my therapist would consider restricting since theres more then half the day left. Even though I ate plenty.

They (my mom and therapist) just never seem pleased at the amount I eat or the times I eat when I am eating.

[Deilla]

As long as I'm taking my weekly diabetic med on time, my eating is normal.