[indigo1015]

This nighttime eating really bites… went food shopping after work and got some reduced fat peanut butter that i planned on using for snacks and such. Had a rough night because it was too hot in my bedroom, so i moved out to the living area where my window a/c unit is and had trouble getting comfortable on the futon. When i woke up this morning after finally getting some sleep, that jar of peanut butter was empty and had been thrown in the trash. **** me.

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[MuddyBoots]

So when I plan a b/p session it doesn't happen... plan one for every day then lol

[Mountaindewed]

I haven't eaten much in 2 days because its easier on my stomach to just not eat. I can drink soda and tea and coffee though. This afternoon my mom woke me up and she had made this serving of bean spaghetti she told me to go eat. So I did since I was kinda hungry and pasta is a safe food.

[MuddyBoots]

Clogged the toilet again this morning. I think my electrolytes are really fked up because I can't stop shaking, I feel super cold and tingly, and I'm tired. It's extremely unusual for me to be tired at 10am

[MuddyBoots]

Maybe it was low blood sugar.
Sometimes that happens if I get a really effective purge going on/too much flushing.

I didn't eat anything yesterday. This morning I made some more vegan chili and I had a little bit of that for protein. I smoked some weed and had af beer so I hope I don't get the munchies.

[Mountaindewed]

Maybe I just had too much Gatorade or something because my weight shot way up to the point nothing fits but my sweat pants. So I have to make an emergency shopping trip and
get a few pairs of gym shorts and a pack of T shirts. Idk. Its just weird. I know I've the Gatorade and then yesterday I had a container of Panera soup and then a large serving bowl of instant Lipton soup. So maybe its the sodium, Because I really haven't increased my food intake much. Like how do your clothes go from fitting fine one day to not fitting at all the next?

And now my weight is back down...

[Buffy01]

I just went to the doctor today and was chewed out because of how much weight I had put on I was fighting tears leaving

[Mountaindewed]

I lost my sense of taste and smell. I can't smell the chili my mom made for her and my brother for dinner and I just now tried drinking a Coke but it tasted like water. So I kinda restriced today both on purpose and not on purpose.

[MuddyBoots]

I actually did pretty good yesterday. My mom made cake yesterday and when I woke up it was tempting to binge on it and the leftover frosting, but I did not and for that I am proud of myself.

[Mountaindewed]

I was back to normal today. It must have been the sodium. Today I'm not doing well but my therapist said the other day if I can just snack myself through the day, thats good enough for her. I have a couple medical conditions on top of the ED. So food isn't really fun right now. Plus I still can't taste anything.

[Mountaindewed]

I swear if I just don't eat, I feel ok. I haven't had anything in over 12 hours and my stomach feels fine. I had a couple small iced lattes and they were fine since anything I drink is ok. I have some cook in the bag microwave pasta I'll try in a bit

[Buffy01]

Since stopping the Mirtazaphine and drinking slim fast meal replacement I started to lose some weight

[MuddyBoots]

Binge and purge, and you're bloated.
Try to recover, and you're bloated.
There is no winning here.

[MuddyBoots]

Went five days without b/p, but then I got drunk and high and, well, yeah, now it's back to day 0.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

Went five days without b/p, but then I got drunk and high and, well, yeah, now it's back to day 0.

I’m sorry

[Presently]

I need to get a grip on this myself. I keep putting off the decision to stop ... I guess day one could come soon.

[Mountaindewed]

My mom heated me up some leftover semi home made chicken noodle soup yesterday after I got home. I didn't really ask for it or feel like eating it, but I knew it was what I needed and she was being really nice. I asked if she measured it which was probably a *****y thing to say. She said no but she said like she and my therapist keep telling me, I shouldn't be focusing on calories right now.

My mom has done this twice now where shes just made food without me asking and brought it to me. I appreciate it because I know shes worried about me. And its never a huge amount of food either. She uses my own smaller bowls and stuff.

I was eating some ketchup Doritos about half an hour ago and I did count them out.

[MuddyBoots]

As long as I don't do the drunk/high combo I'm good. If I get high I binge from the munchies. If I get drunk, well, I just nap. So I've kinda replaced b/p with drinking.

[Mountaindewed]

I haven't eaten much today partially because of the procedure yesterday, and partially because I've been busy and forgot. What I did eat was typical sick food. A few apple sauces, and a bowl of chicken noodle soup. Some Doritos. And I had a Mountain Dew and a Coke and a small can of Starbucks coffee. So idk. What I think is ok other people think is bad.