advertisement
Closed Thread
Thread Tools Display Modes
eskielover
Legendary Wise Elder
 
eskielover's Avatar
eskielover has no updates.
 
Member Since: Oct 2004
Location: Kentucky, USA
Posts: 24,701 (SuperPoster!)
15 yr Member
14.5k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 29, 2021 at 01:33 PM
  #121
Quote:
Originally Posted by buttrfli42481 View Post
Had chicken noodle soup and a brownie today. Dr ticked me off. Said to eat and my issues would go away. Wish it worked that way.
Helps if you are aware of what is really causing those issues. Eating will never solve the underlying issues that are really causing our ED'S. I heard them get that in treatment for overeating & bulimia but somehow they never applied it to the anorexia I was dealing with.

__________________


Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
eskielover is offline  

advertisement
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 29, 2021 at 03:31 PM
  #122
Today has gone well. I overate last night. I wanted that full feeling in my stomach. If I feel that way again today, I will have soup.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
Anonymous32451
Guest
Anonymous32451 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Default May 02, 2021 at 09:34 AM
  #123
this afternoon I had a huge delivery of junkfood

its meant to last me through the bank holiday... so today and tomorrow

it won't: it will probably be all gone by tonight. but you know.. if I could cook properly..
 
 
Hugs from:
Deilla
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 02, 2021 at 10:30 AM
  #124
I did some stress eating last night. I'll just eat junk today. I don't feel like cooking.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 02, 2021 at 05:10 PM
  #125
It's 5pm and still haven't ate today. Nothing to cook no money to buy something.

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
ReveuseTroublee
Member
ReveuseTroublee has no updates.
 
Member Since: Jan 2021
Location: France
Posts: 154
3 yr Member
86 hugs
given
Default May 05, 2021 at 05:09 AM
  #126
I feel the urge to purge and excercise compulsively more and more. If I could (I do not allow myself to for obvious reasons) I would purge and abuse lax again, maybe meds... I mean I already lost control but I don't want all damage.
I feel so disgusted when I look at myself. I feel guilty for eating, for existing. Food makes me feel nauseous. Life makes feel nauseous.
I feel closer to God and more pure if I reduce it and I feel like I am a better athlete then. Food makes me feel dirty and disgusting and (even more) fat.
I am always agitated, irritable and on the edge.
I am restricting greatly...
I feel like this is more so because of my current situation. I feel like I am completely losing control. I try to keep everything together. But there are so many issues right now. I can not be everywhere... But this gives me at least an illusion of control.
I hope that does not trigger...
Since I still express how I feel.
I feel like at the moment this is better than all the other self-destructive behaviors and has at least some benefits or feels like that.
ReveuseTroublee is offline  
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 06, 2021 at 02:37 AM
  #127
I am very angry with myself tonight. I ate taco bell for lunch. (It was cinco de mayo). Then when I got home from church, I had crackers and then ice cream. I have a medical clearance appointment tomorrow and have the urge to be smaller than I was just a few days ago. I shouldn't have ate all that. What if I jeopardized my chances of getting treatment? I am so mad.

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 06, 2021 at 04:20 PM
  #128
I'm tired of eating vegetables and deli turkey all the time. I decided to order real food. And pies.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 06, 2021 at 11:13 PM
  #129
Am so uncomfortable right now. Had a big dinner and am still uncomfortable hours later. Should never have ate it.

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 07, 2021 at 03:13 AM
  #130
I did some bing-eating.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 11, 2021 at 12:17 AM
  #131
Had a consultation with an attorney regarding divorce. Went to my daughter's and had dinner. That's the only time I ate today. Did get a call from EDCare saying they want me in php. Supposed to start Monday morning.

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 11, 2021 at 02:36 AM
  #132
I'm trying to eat better.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
Anonymous32451
Guest
Anonymous32451 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Default May 29, 2021 at 10:14 AM
  #133
I think I need to learn how to eat slower

today for lunch I had some bacon flavored potato chips, and they still don't feel very digested to me (aqa my stomach still feels very full and I've not even had dinner yet!)

I am meant to be having pizza for dinner with garlic bread, but I don't feel like it really.. oh well: it's not for like another hour. we'll see
 
 
Hugs from:
Deilla
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 29, 2021 at 04:02 PM
  #134
I've been eating meat and vegetables. I eat very little carbs.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 29, 2021 at 10:12 PM
  #135
Started EDCare 2 weeks ago. I do great while I'm in program. It's when I'm outside of program I struggle. On Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays I am on my own for dinner and hs snack. Tuesdays and Thursdays we have dinner there. Saturday we are on our own for dinner PM snack and hs snack. Sundays all on our own. I micro restrict most days. I almost feel I need more support with all meals. I don't cook so that makes it easier to not eat. It sucks. Am I ever going to get better?

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
Anonymous32451
Guest
Anonymous32451 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Default May 30, 2021 at 04:12 AM
  #136
could have easily gone without dinner

ate it anyway, because you know well... that's just me.. eat too much

didn't enjoy it
 
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 30, 2021 at 12:59 PM
  #137
So far this weekend I have not met my meal plan. Am I really wanting to recover?

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default May 31, 2021 at 03:20 AM
  #138
Again, just meat and vegetables.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
buttrfli42481
Magnate
 
buttrfli42481's Avatar
buttrfli42481 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2009
Location: Independence, MO
Posts: 2,609
10 yr Member
1,592 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jun 01, 2021 at 09:32 PM
  #139
Feeling extremely inadequate and anxious. Don't have a scheduled hs snack so why eat even if feeling slightly hungry? I know it is ed voice telling me not to. How do you get it to shut up? Will it ever?

__________________
C'est la vie
buttrfli42481 is offline  
Deilla
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Deilla's Avatar
Deilla is napping.
 
Member Since: Oct 2017
Location: Limsa Lominsa
Posts: 29,398 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
49.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Jun 02, 2021 at 01:36 AM
  #140
I ate comfort food yesterday. I will try to do better today.

__________________
‘Live for now,’

‘This too shall pass,’

‘Everything is happening for my good.’
Deilla is offline  
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 05:13 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.