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#701
Working out because I have a few minutes to kill before I get in the shower, or doing 30 squats because of stressful news, I guess is not a healthy thing to do. My mom told me working out too much can be just as bad as any other eating disorder. I don't know if my workout over did things or my brunch from Taco Bell did. If I don't eat anything else today, I'd be considered restricting. I have stuff planned for dinner, I just don't know if I have the appetite.
I'm just super full. I'm not restricting on purpose. I don't like how low I am but I'm not hungry. I took a second pepcid so I'll see how it goes. __________________ Ridin' with Biden Last edited by Mountaindewed; Nov 20, 2022 at 03:25 PM.. |
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#702
I was busy today. And by the time I got home my schedule was messed up. I didn't restrict on purpose but I didn't work out.
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#704
I'm not very hungry today. I did eat but before 9AM. I just now ate some Ritz cheese sandwhich crackers. A therapist suggested I eat those when I have trouble eating. I miss working out and I think I can get back into it by Sunday or Monday. I need to take it really easy though.
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#705
All I had with Children Fill A as a late lunch early dinner.
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#706
Thanksgiving dinner... f**k!
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#707
I keep thinking about how when I was 13-23 and I was treated differently. Food was restricted by my staff when I was 14 16 and 17. They even had a lock on the fridge at one point in 2009 at a group home I was at. My doctor harped on me nonstop from 2011-2018. I know shaming doesn't work very well in a lot of cases. In my case I was so fed up with everything that I started working on myself in 2016. And now I seem to be heading in the opposite direction then I was when I was a teenager and a young adult. Some things just stay with you and mess with your mind though.
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#708
I managed Thanksgiving ok though. I haven't eaten with a group of people since the summer. I sat at the head of the table next to my uncle and my moms weird cousin who sat down after I did. I ate very slowly and it took about 20 minutes for me to finish 2 small pieces of turkey, and a scoop of stuffing and mashed potatoes. I hate eating in front of people, it makes me so uncomfortable. My uncle knows I'm consicous about things so he probably understood. At home though I can slam down 2 Taco Bell bean burritos in 5 minutes if I'm by myself.
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#711
Today wasn't too bad. My med increase is causing me to lose my appetite a little bit but I'm still eating. I've been eating fruit lately which I haven't done in awhile. I worked out twice this week. Today I may have gone a bit overboard so tommorow will be a rest day if I can control myself. I wonder what my new therapist will say about things. They all say different things but the last 2 have said I am fine where I'm at if not bordering on being too restrictive with things.
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#712
I don't know if I restricted today or not. I ate what I consider a normal amount but it was mainly just snacks. High in protein snacks though. I know I went a period of time this morning where I was pretty hungry but ignored it. I've started chewing gum but for non food restriction reasons.
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#713
I restricted today but I wasn't feeling good and I was super busy. I sent my therapist an email last night about being worn out and she responded with just like more carbs and protein in the morning and **** like that.
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#714
I guess I restricted just because I ate most of my stuff before 10:30AM. Its getting kinda late and my mom was going to get some takeout. I was thinking of getting a hotdog so my body doesnt "eat itself" as my last therapist told me it would. But I'm also just super tired.
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#715
I’m sorry but you are struggling right now.
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#716
My mom harped on me yesterday because I barely ate anything. I was so tired though. Today was better but my food quality could have been better. I worked out this morning and got a new piece of workout equipment. I do really need to discuss this in therapy though.
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#717
Pretty much where I always am, seems like nothing is filling me up
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__________________ Everyone can do magic - Cassie Nightgale the good witch. Dear Diary today will be different today I can smile it will be genuine because today is the day I get to live. This life will be good and beautiful, but not without heartbreak. In death come peace. But pain is the cost of living. Like love, it's how we know we're alive. And life goes on. That my life weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic and I owe all to Stephen. - Eleanor Gilbert Vampire Diaries |