[indigo1015]

I feel really deflated these days… I’ve been working up to using my rowing machine every day (right now I do a 20-minute HIIT workout on it every other day), but I am so sore today. I my legs and hip flexor muscles really hurt. I cheated yesterday and downed a burrito from a gas station when I got home from work. I was just so tired and drained and hungry last night. I’d been so good for the whole day until that point. I don’t know my current weight because I don’t keep a scale in my condo, and anyway, the BMI is a crock of ****. I’ve been looking into outpatient eating disorder programs, but I’m incredibly scared, because my previous experiences with clinics have been dreadful. The first clinic was fine until they got a new nutritionist; then they started posting pictures and advertising programs there that were horrifically triggering. Like, blatantly so. The second one was all about body positivity, which is great of you look like a model like all the counselors did, but I am not 5’10” and 120 lbs. and never have been in my life. Plus, whenever I would say how miserable I was, my counselor would snap, “That’s your eating disorder talking; I’m not gonna talk to your eating disorder, I’m gonna talk to you.” Like, what the ****?! What does that even mean?! So although I hope I find something in the Denver area, I’m very nervous about it. More than anything, I just feel like I should be further asking in my recovery than I am. I’ve been battling eating disorders for 25 years. I feel like I shouldn’t still be like this.

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[CelticHeart]

I understand how you feel. Please don't let yourself become discouraged by their behavior. After 25 years someone should have really helped you. Maybe it's time to let them know exactly what you need and make them help you. In a firm respectful way, demand it. They work for YOU, not the other way around.

I know it can feel your nothing but a number. They bring you in, then hurry you on out the door without even listening to your concerns.

You deserve to feel cared about and important. It is their job to make you feel that way. It is very important that you get them to listen to you. Please don't shy away from telling them what you need. You deserve to be healthy & happy.

Take Care

Originally Posted by CelticHeart

I understand how you feel. Please don't let yourself become discouraged by their behavior. After 25 years someone should have really helped you. Maybe it's time to let them know exactly what you need and make them help you. In a firm respectful way, demand it. They work for YOU, not the other way around.

I know it can feel your nothing but a number. They bring you in, then hurry you on out the door without even listening to your concerns.

You deserve to feel cared about and important. It is their job to make you feel that way. It is very important that you get them to listen to you. Please don't shy away from telling them what you need. You deserve to be healthy & happy.

Take Care

this is a really good post, and can apply to so many diffrent situations

good to bear it in mind

[Roma12]

Please take care of yourselves.