[Blueberrybook]

I am having a lot of issues with the competitiveness aspect of EDs even after being recovered for a long time I know my weight is normal but sometimes I'll hear or read or see something about someone losing weight and feel like, "OMG, I NEED to start losing weight, I'm so fat, I'm so lazy, I'm eating too much" and WTH, I KNOW I don't need to lose weight/diet/exercise more than so-and-so but there it is.

[MuddyBoots]

I hear ya, sis. IP (psych, not ED) we get weighed once a week and of course everyone shares "I gained x lbs," "I'm jealous, I gained y!" and I'm over in the corner listening and doing everything in my power over that week to have the lowest number.

Add in someone else with an active ED not trying to recover (or going at it poorly)...oof

[Blueberrybook]

I completely understand the place you are coming from. That would drive me crazy, weigh-ins in groups and people comparing how much they gained or lost, and you want to be the one who gained the least or lost weight. I still have memories of being in 6th grade gym class, we all got weighed for the yearly physical fitness test. I developed a lot faster than my friends. Everyone was sitting in the girls' dressing room comparing weights, and I had the highest weight among my group of friends, and I was so embarassed and ashamed about my weight