i told my T that no one ever thinks that someone with weight to lose could possibly have a problem getting themselves to eat. The only ED a chubby person could have would be over-eating, right? Wrong. i gained weight after a thyroid tumor and i was devastated. i thought i was bulimic as a teen.. bc i threw up, i didn't know enough about ED's to know that i was really an anorexic who purged. Now, bc i am not undrweight, i'd be dx'd as eating disorder NOS. But no one gets that. i'm losing weight rapidly, but all anyone sees or says is either how good i am looking, or how they are jealous. No one but my T knows... no one. i cooked a fancy dinner for my parents, ate a tiny portion and still was compelled to throw up... they were still enjoying their meal and hadn't noticed the size of my portion or that i went missing for an extended period.

i saw pics of me as a teen and i was positively scary weight-wise. No one noticed. They envied my figure bc i was large busted... and that makes a person look bigger, so maybe they didn't notice the size of my arms or hips. One friend cornered me on the purging once... asked me straight out.. but she has long forgotten... and another once gave me a tap on the hip while we were joking about something and she sort of seemed real shocked and asked me to not lose any more weight... otherwise, no one notices or says anything.

i'm not sure i'd really want them to.. ok, no, i don't want them to notice what i'm doing.. i just feel invisible. Rejected by society at large for having a "disgusting" or "ridiculous" disorder, and invisible to those around me.

[Kiya]

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I see you FLUFF. I'm out here.
kiya

[wishfulmuscle]

im in the 'healthy' weight range so nobody knows unless i tell them about my problem.

its frusterating bc the friends that dont know that always want to go out to eat, just dont understand why i cant. Going out to eat means you Have to sit there with food in your face, alot of food..
and then i binge. yucky.

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[Christina86]

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Some people just don't "get it", but I'm glad your T knows.

You're not invisible to me, you're a great presence to have around here.