[Porcelain_doll_2004]

Hi to all reading this. I am sorry for posting so much just having a hard time right now.

I need advice and as soon as possible so I can stop this behavior. I am already anorexic and know that I have problems with that already. But 2 days ago and I have a feeling today may be no better the way it has started, I started to make myself sick after meals. I don't want to be doing this! Last night I didn't eat dinner and got really really really dizzy
and she made herself sick with nothing in her stomach.

I know that this is a new behavior and I know that it is very dangerious on it's own but could increase risks since I am already anorexic.

Anyone have good tips on stopping this behavior? I have tried comming online, I have tried reading a book and I have tried listening to music.

Thanks if anyone can help!

[silver_queen]

You have me again Doll

I suppose one of the simplest ways would be to rationalise.

Because you only want to throw up because of a feeling that you'll get fat. But it isn't at all likely that you will get fat through starving... so... if you haven't eaten, there is no reason to throw up. And remember that list . And remember too the damage caused, which will, I think, be worse on an empty stomach. Because then you'd be throwing up only bile, which is acidic, which will damage your throat and your teeth (over time). Dentists can tell because it wears away the enamel on the back teeth. Repetitive vomiting also damages the vocal cords too. Oops, these are those side effects you don't like to read

And yes, making yourself throw up also puts pressure on the heart...

So yeah...

One thing... people like myself... care very deeply about you.. and what happens to you.. to remind yourself.. that.. yes.. I have people that care...

I have many, many problems myself.. and I cannot express myself... because of my problems... here.. on PC... to lend the support that I want to... BUT.. you.. are in my thoughts.. and prayers.. whether you realize it or not.... I care....


One method.. of stopping the cycle... is to eat many, many.. small... snacks...every 1 to 1.5 hours.... because it doesn't "feel" like a "meal" - sub-consiously... yes.. I do this.... and.. yes it works....for anerxioia too..

choose... your "snacks".... to best.... serve your body needs... nuts... like walnuts.. cashews.. pack a "protein and good things"... and yet.. you need just a "few"..

a smootie.. with vitaims.. packs calcium, and vitamins....

the dry cerail.. .. the one that has 100 percent of daily vit.... only 100 calories..with no milk...if you cannot stand milk or soy milk..

a health bar...

V-8 juice... the ones that are peach/mango... berry... or tomato

each of these examples... and you can look in store for things that you like.... if you ate... spread thru out the day... would keep your body "fed".... not add... lots of calories - no reason therefore to purge them... they will not.. if you spread them out... add bulk to your tummy - make it stick out.... and... yet... you will actually feel better...

I have looked in the stores.. because of my own problem... so there are tons of things like that... a piece of toast.. with sugarless peanut butter or almond spread...

It is a method.. that does work....

A more "difficult" method.. is.. the one where you list.. what the binge/purge actually does to your body - it is the "mind" work... that T's have made me do..

The list that I have... and I believe shared with you... the physical things.. that did... did.. happen to me... some the previous poster listed..

Reminding yourself... of what does happen long term... and that you know a person.. an average run of the mill person... me.. that has most of the things on the list... it does happen...

might help you "rationalize"... that you do not want that for you...

My dentist "loved" me as patient.. when I did go in and get my teeth fixed.. yes at 52... I still have them... though.. they have had enameling put on them.. and.. cavities.. at the very base of the root... they look good.. painful process.. several thousands of dollars.. out of my pocket because I had no dental insurance...

I will not go thru the "list" again... because it.. is such a "lecture"... kind of thing..

And really... I just want you to care about you.. as much as .. I care about you....