[mary39]

i feel like ****.
i've been craving pancakes all week, so today i hadn't eaten anything yet and it was 3 so i made some. After i ate them though i felt so full and disgusted with myself, like i just had to get it out of me.
i tried to make myself throw up again 3 times. Each time i gagged but nothing came out. Why doesn't it work??
i feel horrible, and disappointed with myself =(
Maybe it's better if i just don't eat.

[luckyyouxx]

im not going to tell you why it doesnt work...because i might have an idea. however, my nutritionalist said that people tend to eat more at meal times if they are not eating enough nutirtional things in the morning or snacking on healthy things through out the day. So if you don't eat, you'll have more chances of binging later on. because we get so hungry later on, we tend to scarf down waaay more food than we normally would have if we had eaten things throughout the day.
Try not to feel dissapointed in yourself because that is just part of the disease. Please get help before this gets way out of control, and trust me, once you are in this mess, you will wish you werent.

[Edahn]

I'm sorry. I know very little about eating disorders. I did go through a phase where I was totally obsessed with what I ate and how I looked. It took some discipline to stop obsessing and just start eating foods that I didn't allow myself to eat before. I stopped talking about food so much and started to let go of all those thoughts. I still watch my weight (and I look sexy as HELL) and work out, but I eat with minimal regard to calories.

The pancakes sounded really good.

[mary39]

thanks for the replies,
i think i'm going to try and be more open with the counsellor i'm seeing before this gets even worse. >.<