Weight Loss and Exercise #4

I’ve never stressed about gaining weight. I’m human and I’m not extra “woke” however I’ve learned my body.

I’ve accepted that I have multiple chronic illnesses and medications are part of my life, for LIFE.

Any and every medication change results in negative or positive side effects. Which usually includes weight gain etc.

If a medication is causing me too much weight gain, I have the prescribing doctor take me off the medication/find an alternative medication or I find something non-big pharma.

I gain weight, put in work via exercise and lose the weight…so I don’t stress. I also don’t believe in explaining to random people, acquaintances, family and “so-called” friends why I gained weight. I view this as fatphobia.

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I was 161.8 today. I was kinda surprised I was that low. Maybe all that crap I didn’t eat that was on top of the latte had more calories then I realized. The latte had 440 calories with all of it and I didn’t subtract any of it. So far today I had a 12oz bottle of berry Gatorade, a trenta size coffee from Starbucks, and 2 hard boiled eggs. I also had a 5 calorie Gatorade zero. I had planned on having a bowl of deluxe Kraft macaroni and cheese for lunch and then an Atkins shake, and an English muffin with apple butter for dinner. Then a cup of Jif to go crunchy peanut butter for an afternoon snack. But I’m wondering if I should eat the peanut butter for lunch and the Mac and cheese for a snack since my coffee is suddenly increasing my anxiety and I could use the peanut butter to help calm my anxiety. But I’ve all but given up soda so I really can only drink water, coffee, diet tea, and zero sugar Gatorade. The soup doesn’t seem to be an issue since I’ve had a lot of soup and ramen lately and am still losing. I always dump the broth out though. So maybe the issue was really the soda. Being on the topamax and not having female hormones anymore does help quite a bit as well though. I’ve heard trans men can lose weight easily after hysterectomies.

I lost a little more weight so that is good. I have been focused on nutrition. I'm trying to eat healthily.

I bought a bunch of healthy groceries today, made a meal plan for the next week and a half, hoping to stick to it. I also want to start increasing my exercise, specifically walking and repetitions with my 8lb weights

I'm just stuck and I don't know why. Maybe too much stress.

I was still 161.8 today. I was kinda worried yesterday that my feet weren’t all the way on the scale and today they were for sure all the way on the scale. For breakfast I had half a cinnamon crumble muffin with a tablespoon of apple butter and a hard boiled egg. I had a medium cheese fries from Sonic for a morning snack. Lunch whenever will be a microwave cup of Campbells double noodle soup with the broth dumped out and a Fuji apple. Dinner will probably be eaten in shifts but it will still be in my 3:30PM time frame but it will be another egg, an Atkins shake, and my last plain English muffin with another tablespoon of apple butter. I have down roughly 1350 calories and my mom is trying to tell me that all that is not enough food. Really? It seems like a ton of food to me. I woke up at 2:30 this morning feeling sick as **** so I needed to break my intermittent fasting and drink a couple small bottles of zero sugar Gatorade’s at 4 instead of waiting until 6:30. But it was kinda medically necessary to get the fluids inside me. But I did wait to actually eat until 6:30.

I was 162.2 today. I’m not surprised at all. I had four 12oz bottles of Gatorade zero yesterday. That stuff has a ton of sodium and can just throw your weight off in general. Plus I had soup and some macaroni and cheese for dinner. So my sodium was high even though I was still in my calorie range. Today for breakfast I had half a cinnamon crumble muffin and a tablespoon spoon of apple butter. I don’t think I cut the muffin exactly so it may have been a bit less then half. Then I also had a Sargento string cheese. I got a large peppermint mocha iced latte from Dunkin’ Donuts around 8:30. Lunch will be a peppermint Chobani flips yogurt, and dinner will be an Atkins shake, an English muffin, and a tablespoon of apple butter. I also plan on having 4 sugar free jellos. I feel like I’m lacking a bit quality wise so I may figure things out a bit differently or just chug a 62 or whatever oz bottle of diet tea since that always seems to help. Right now I’m at 1,325 calories and 1,210 mil of sodium.

Edit: I did figure things out a bit differently and I’m having a yoplait Oui yogurt instead of the Chobani flips and it is about 40 calories less. So I was able to have a hard boiled egg as well and 3 sugar free jellos instead of 4. So now I’m at 1330 calories for the day. Although I still could have a couple more jellos and still be in my goal range. And I did also drink an entire 59oz bottle of Gold Peak diet sweet tea.

I ate an entire package of sugar free jello. Which was 4 cups. While they were filling and only 5 calories for each cup my stomach is not thanking me right now.

But I skipped the apple butter with my English muffin tonight so total today it was 1,305 calories, maybe a bit less because I don’t think the cinnamon muffin from this morning was sliced exactly in half. I had 1,280 mil of sodium. My MFP goal is to stay under 2300mil. I was also under my carbs goal as well. I was at 157 and my goal is to stay under 170. So I should lose on all that and get back to 161 something in the morning. I did calculate my diet drinks as well but the diet sweet tea only had 20mil of sodium per serving so 100mil total.

Oh i was going to warn you about the sugar free jello. Its dangerous to eat more than one, MAYBE 2 servings - dangerous in terms of gas and diarrhea. Do not trust your farts tonight, trust me! I eat sugar free stuff to help manage constipation.

Haha yeah the farts. I just asked my mom if the cat box smelled bad because something smells real bad and she said no it’s not the cat box.

Yeah, whats the word? - sharts!

I was 161.6 today I think. Or .4. I don’t remember. So far I’ve had a measured out cup of pumpkin spice Cheerios and a pumpkin English muffin without anything on it, and a a string cheese. I also went to Sonic and I got 3 unsweetened black berry iced teas and the black berry flavorings have 5 calories each. I’m not sure exactly what else I’ll be eating. Right now I have planned out a UK Kit Kat and a can of progresso chicken noodle soup without the broth for lunch. And an Atkins shake, a hard boiled egg, and another pumpkin English muffin for dinner. Then the string cheese I just had and another egg for a snack. So that’s 1295 calories and I’m over my protein goal, under my sodium goal, just barely under my carbs goal, and for once I’m under my sugar goal. But I have this recipe for huevos rancheros for my slow cooker that I may look into. But I may just stick with what I already have planned.

Well I’m going to make the huevos rancheros. I found my 5 ingredients slow cooker book and each serving has 200 calories. So I was going to have a candy bar but I decided to have a can of progresso soup instead which had about the same amount of calories but of course it’s a lot better. I dumped the broth out. I have an Atkins shake in the fridge and then I’ll have 2 servings of the slow cooker stuff for dinner. Then probably another English muffin or something. I don’t know. Without the English muffin I’m at 1,195 calories which is incredibly low. I don’t know but I’ll figure it out.

I barely ate today.

I was 161.6 at 4 and then I drank a Mountain Dew and ate the rest of dinner from last night and I drank some water and I was 163 at 6:30. I know it’s silly to think I actually gained that but I swear I did and in the morning I’ll be like 162.6. I got a couple diet and zero sugar sodas while I was out but then I forgot to eat until I got home around 1 and I had Greek yogurt and a string cheese. I just now had an Atkins shake. Dinner will be a pumpkin English muffin and something else. I’m not sure what else. I have about 170 calories left. I feel like I ate a lot today but I didn’t. I doubt the 163 was legit. But maybe I should just stick with the English muffin and not add anything else and just be at 1200 calories for the day which is where I am now.

I weigh the same but I did walk half a mile today and I was good with my food.

I was 161.2 today. Today I’m just gonna have 3 meals and zero snacks because I honestly am tired of food and too lazy to eat 3 full size meals and 2 decent size snacks. So breakfast was 2 Thomas pumpkin English muffins and 2 unsweetened blackberry iced teas from Sonic. I also had 2 zero sugar sodas. Lunch will be a chicken noodle soup bread bowl from Panera. Dinner will be an Atkins shake and a hard boiled egg. I’m at 1,325 calorie, 66 grams of protein, 218 carbs, and 2,625 mil of sodium. So it’s not the best overall. Especially the carbs part. But I’m just hoping to be at 160.8 in the morning. Maybe I can dump the broth out in the soup. Like I do with the canned stuff. Since my main issue is with sodium.

I’m thinking of skipping the hard boiled egg and just having the Atkins shake for dinner. I’d be low with calories at 1255 but I feel like the low calories will make up for the amount of carbs and sodium I’ve had today. Plus I’m pretty tired and not hungry anyways and the Atkins shake will just fill me up even more. So without the egg I’m at 1255 calories, 217 carbs, 2560 mil of sodium. So not a huge difference in carbs or sodium but I’m hoping that the 70 calories less makes a difference. I’m just hoping it will be one of those quantity vs quality days for me.

I’m not sure how to explain any of this to my therapist in the morning.

I didn't weigh myself. I walked again today but not as far and I've been good with my food. The only thing I have left now to eat that is simple is soup. So I worry about that.

I was 162.2 today. I really really just had it. I was literally .2 away from being 160 and the only difference was that I was drinking soda again after stopping it. So I threw away my soda collection. And I mean I had tons of it. I was in a complete rage this morning. I only kept like 5 cans I bought on eBay that I spent a lot of money on. Today I’m at 1350 calories, 79 grams of protein, 88 carbs, and 1075 mil of sodium. It was just so frustrating this morning. I’m past lunchtime but too lazy to get up to eat.

I had a nutrition shake and protein bar for breakfast, lunch was a bagel thin w/ some cream cheese, dinner will be half a veggie/turkey wrap. Not sure what my weight is, when I checked it last week it was 160 exactly. I'll check it again this weekend

I prepared some veggie meals. So I am good for a couple of days. I took my trash out today so I got some exercise.