[ridicknotme]

its abt my life...i mean future...
i was good at studies...since childhood....what i think of my self when i evaluate my self is that...i
m a very good learner...i can pretty much
understand every thing....my life was going
ok...my parents decided to make me an
engineer...i never thought what i wanted to
do...so i thought i should do it...i joined a coatchng class for iit....iit is like harvard of india....i did well
at coaching...faculties belived i will suerly get into
iit...so did i...but there were certain complications
in life...i was under stress...huge and continuos
stress for abt 6 months....i couldnt get in iit...didnt
get a good clg either...i thoughts its ok...i can study hard in this clg and may be doi good
here...i studied the 1st semester and good gpa
too...bt failed in one subject...the subject i knew
most abt....i was informed by my senior year
student that this happens here....the teachers
there were nt gud either...they were terrible....slowly i stopped studyng....i started to
watch movies...non stop...didnt knw what else to
do...i saw like 3000movies in 2 years....i saw 8 tv
shows...played 30 games...in classes i begin to
draw...i also started to write songs...write
stories...singing dancing...and i became pretty good at those....bt apart from those i begain to
think in a very differnt way...the way i never
thought before/..i stared to see what is
haappening around the world....the gud the
evil...the uprising need for money...which made
me think abt psycology...i got intrested in psycology very much....i have plans to get into an
clg of cognetive science but the problm is dnt
study...i draw when i m in clg...i watch movies at
home...i dance for 1 hr...bt i dnt study...and i love
to study bt i just cant do it....i dnt knw why...i
tried to apply little psycology stuff on me and reached a conclusion that i dnt study becoz I m
afraid of failing again like i did before for the iit...i
also want to draw... write music...write
books...write songs...study human brain
cognetivity...sing ...dance...bt i just end up
watchng movies....i dnt knw what do ido...if i stay this way i m afraid i aint goona pass the clg
either.....do any of u have anything to say to
me...help me....

[healingme4me]

How about adjustment disorder? After not receiving acceptance into your choice college is a little before this movie addiction began, if I'm reading correctly? It'd seem natural that a depression illness would ensue then followed by your movie intake.