INTERNET addiction

It doesnt feel like an addiction for myself.

Bc I can go w/o. If I do something irl, there is no hard urge for it. And I also dont think like I do something good or meaningful in posting something somewhere.

It just feels I dont have anything else to do in my life. Im wasting my time to distract myself from my boringness and therefore thinking bad about myself.

My addictions are real.
I admit I am an alcoholic. This took a long time to admit to myself and and some of my close family members.
I have an internet addiction. I spend hours on here and other forums, face book, email, etc. have neglected my yard which is in shambles. I walked into the back yard, had not been and discovered what it looked like. It is a dust bowl. all of the grass is dead. We will hire someone to till it up and put down dirt and sod and then we will water the shiet out of it. I use to love working in the yard but got very lazy and resentful that my husband did not help so stopped doing yard work. I believe that the extra zyprexa has opened my eyes to my addictions. Have been more thoughtful. I have neglected my responsibilities .....I have had bouts of hypomania.
Now to just prioritize what needs to get done on the house, first thing is getting the foundation fixed. The new mailbox is nice.
so maybe today we can come up with a list of things that we would like to do. We are finalizing the closing of our new line of credit to do the repairs/remodeling. It will be cheaper to remodel than buy a new house.

have a great day!
bizi

Here is the clear distinction. I feel I am at this point NOW...

but there was a time, were I was like Bizi and now I'm having to pick up the pieces and trying to convince my husband I don't currently have a problem has been a headache (oh, husband and father, since i mentioned father before)

I spend an inordinate amount of time online, but don't watch tv except what is available online like the olympics through bbc. Partly it is because it is so cold here now and my life is rather empty. Well at least I am keeping my language facilities and brain a little bit active. I also appreciate the social contact here. It is one of my main outlets for connection to the rest of the world.

I think I will give myself a break.
I think that my picking is a bad habit.
I am not a food junkie, I eat well for the most part.
caffeine is a drug that I have become habitual with,
like not in excess. 3-4 cups a day is not too too much.
Both the internet and alcohol are habits and addictions that I struggle with.
I am seeking balance in all areas of my life.
I will go to the gym in a bit so that will get me off the computer for a while, hubby needs it.
bizi

Good for you Bizi!

I think I might be having issues again...I don't know. I did something online and now I'm anxious about it (trying to rekindle an old friendship and I'm so anxious and nervous and sad that it might not happen or something bad might even happen.) and I'm doing everything and anything not to think about it, but I still keep obsessively checking for news, or checking that there is no news yet. Ugh!

But I am also working hard on my other stuff. It sucks that I'm so mentally preoccupied though, but I'm physically going through crap that keeps me from doing anything extra anyway, so perhaps it's best that I stay distracted...except that I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight. Sigh! I'm kinda an emotional wreck right now. Excited and anxious at the same time. It's mental! ...now to the bipolar checkin. *sigh*

I am sorry giddykitty that you are suffering.
I wish for you some peace of mind.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

ohhh! I have issues! No, I've been relatively good, but I still haven't gotten an answer and i'm so tempted to throw in the towel (and take back the request). This is so like making me vulnerable and looking stupid. I wish I could write a message...but i can't. So anyway, I need to be strong now though and try not to think...I just. well. this all makes me wonder if I'm even doing the right thing. Oh why does it hurt so bad??!!! (this IS internet addiction, because I'm going everywhere else to try to forget about this one thing...and I'm trying to distract myself with other stuff on that site, when I probably should be away from it.) ugh! what can I do?! (rhetorical, i think, because I just have to keep doing what i'm doing-stay distracted-awwweee!! i hate this!

Self care is what will help you stay sane.
We have to keep our stability and keep our bipolar under check.
We sometimes make hasty decisions due to our impulses. This doesn't make us bad people it just helps to explain our actions.
Wishing you some peace of mind.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I think I curbed it just in time. Doesn't mean I'm not everywhere almost all the time (a few places had to take a break-here for instance, but others too). But I think that could be the meds and or the therapy helping. I'm starting to worry my therapist might be trying to get me on the hook with her. Actually, my husband thought so at first (It's better with him there though), but now I'm starting to wonder (suddenly, just now), because she's allowing me to email her whenever and however much. I'm being honest about this though, and will tell my pdoc that stuff is easier for me with help. I guess the point though is that it is still difficult. Wait, what thread is this?! Well, it is Kind of on the topic of addiction. Hmm

That is great!
bizi

Dad is really p&^%ing me off. (I should probably review the forum rules about "descriptive language eh hem). But if he had his way, I'd be cut off from the internet. I'm glad my husband isn't so hotheaded and allows me to be on, but we are still trying to curb it to just evenings mostly for now. But yea, he told me Dad told him to shut it down. My dad being notorious for this drastic behavior, I wasn't surprised, but it still really irritates me...on the other hand, it makes me super grateful for my husband! <3

I'm just posting in these same threads because I can't keep track of some of the more busy ones, plus, the other topics I look at are kinda slow. meh!

Hey, Bizi, or anyone, is it even possible to follow a whole forum section? if so, how? because all I can see are saved subscribed THREADS. hmm
Thanks!

sorry I don't really understand but wanted to respond to you.
bizi

I have been on line for hours!!!!!!
sigh
bizi

I can relate to the original post. I've gotten addicted too. It provides instant diversion. Other things I should be doing get neglected.

I am a crazy lady!!!!!!
I can't get off the computer!!!!!
It is like I am glued to it.
constantly going from my favorited sites. Bipolar neurotalk, pyschcentral, yahoo email, addictions forum, facebook, nutrition forum, then back to the top and go to all of the other favorites to see if someone has responded to my thread....
sigh
it is a sickness.
sigh
bizi
my husband will be out of town starting wednesday thru the weekend. I have been known to stay on line for 6 hours.....when he is gone.

Oh, this is so me!! 6 hours—I do more than that. I stay on all day except to work, sleep, go shopping, and chores.

I'd sent you to bed almost an hour ago! Lol!

I did get ready for bed after our "chat"
Thank you for being there for me.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Yes, I'm addicted to the internet. I've pissed off a lot of people on social media. Can't figure out why.

Have you been sarcastic at all?
Could you ask them via a private message?
bizi

I guess I've been negative. My agitation is getting the best of me.

I am sorry your agitation is getting the best of you.
Please don't take it out on your friends.
I believe you can't control your feelings but you can control what you do with them.
bizi

I was on line 5 hours yesterday....
sigh
bizi

I was on all day again, except for shopping and chores.