[giosine]

I've been thrown out of the house several times I don't know if I'm the person or are the people that used to take care for me I lost my mother when I was 9 my father abundondend me since I was a baby the I'm now 22 years old I only had one job in my life only worked there for 8 months the pay is not enough to make a living I finished my grade 12 with 21 points I feel useless the people miss treats me at the house I used to stay at the keep teeling me that I'm stupid and dumb that I'm not worthy I have 3 brothers that I have to take care of I don't even have a job I applied for jobs but they only call me for the interviews after that they don't call back to let me know if I have the job or not I feel useless what can I do to improve my living standards and not to stay with other people but myself?

[Travelinglady]

Hi, giosine, and welcome to Psych Central! I don't think you are any less of a person. You sound like you have ambitions and really want to be out on your own. I don't think anybody deserves to be put down and called names.

Let's see what other folks suggest as far as what you can do.

[pegasus]

Hello giosine, welcome to Psych Central.

the people miss treats me at the house I used to stay at the keep teeling me that I'm stupid and dumb that I'm not worthy...

This sounds like abuse to me and if you are told things like that then you can often start to believe it. I hope you are not living in that environment now. Verbal/emotional abuse like this can lead to very low self esteem and mental health issues such as depression. I personally think you are amazing in looking after your 3 brothers and trying to find work. I think you need to work on feeling better about yourself, feeling worthy comes from within.

Check out the forums here, you will find lots of support and understanding.

[giosine]

Thanks guys for responding to me it really means a lot to me atleast I now know that I were not the problem at home it really helps to be on this site

[healingme4me]

It's reassuring to have others point out the poor behavioural choices of others. Validation and support are basic needs.
I hear you about struggling in job searching. Keep applying, keep trying. If you can keep mum, from the negative naysayers, to keep yourself from losing steam, even better.

Are you hopeful, to find both work and a home to support just yourself and your siblings? Are you familiar with any resources to help orphaned/abandoned children, especially when one sibling is an adult? I hope you can access resources that you need to become independent from these belittlers.

[giosine]

Thanks ill keep praying God works in mysterious ways He closes one door to open another so ill keep praying and do my part by applying I believe that in this year even next month ill be in a work already ill keep u folks updated

[Notoriousglo]

Wish I had seen your post earlier. Contact social services, apply for medical assistance and get a doctor. Tell them everything you have said here. I will pray for you.

[giosine]

I don't have money for a doctor I'm from Namibia

[giosine]

I believe prayer has helped me a lot through those tuff times I've learned to put all those stuff behind me nd trust in God to heal me I forgive those who tresspassed me for now my only concern is finding a job I've been through wors especially the time my mother took her own life see her laying there on bed I could get over it for years but I've grown up and learned to accept the dead cause its part of my life as I'm sharing my life story with u u can see that I've been through a lot not that I ask u to pity me but to see that I'm kinda strong not that I'm praising myself my main concern is finding a job cause without a job its dipressing for me