[Curious Onlooker]

Hi, everyone. I'm probably just going to be here briefly as I have only one reason for being here - I'd like to know your opinions on what my personality disorder might be. I'll go ahead and give you some basic info about myself: Difficulty in school from childhood (above average grades, good friend making skills and charisma but prone to fights and arguments), often in minor or major trouble, as I became older my circle of friends steadily decreased but I seemed normal outside, felt normal, never seemed depressed or like an outcast at all. Always had a high opinion of myself, prone to being all or nothing, lose interest quickly, prone to boredom and like being stimulated by some kind of fun activity all the time yet that doesn't usually happen or work out. Never had really good family relationships, never had a truly nice or ideal romantic relationship either. No desire to go to school, or to work, just to live an easy life mooching off others and barely working yet still an upper class one. A few more details would be that I don't really have a lot of remorse most of the time for bad things I do, not ice cold necessarily but far less remorse than your 'normal' individual! So what am I? I don't want to change, I like being this way. fyi

[Angelique67]

No one can really diagnose you here, but just on the basis of what you've said, I'd say you have some of the traits of AsPD. That does not mean you have it, though. I was given that label and I barely fit the traits at all. I'm very different from the traits except for impulsivity.

[iwonderaboutstuff]

You like being the way you are and you're asking what's wrong with you. I'm confused.

Is there something in that list of traits that concerns you?

[Curious Onlooker]

Originally Posted by iwonderaboutstuff

You like being the way you are and you're asking what's wrong with you. I'm confused.

Is there something in that list of traits that concerns you?

Lol. Well, it's complicated. I know there's something wrong with me, because I am so different from others and feel I always have been. I don't want to change, but I am well aware something just is not right. A few people I know who have vast knowledge have suggested I may be a psychopath, or a sociopath or even both. I just want opinions.

[iwonderaboutstuff]

Originally Posted by Curious Onlooker

Lol. Well, it's complicated. I know there's something wrong with me, because I am so different from others and feel I always have been. I don't want to change, but I am well aware something just is not right. A few people I know who have vast knowledge have suggested I may be a psychopath, or a sociopath or even both. I just want opinions.

Huh. Well, there are all kinds of people in the world and just 'cause they're different doesn't mean there's something wrong with them. People are unique, and really that’s a beautiful thing and part of what makes life interesting – imo.

Idk if a psychopath or a sociopath would care they might be one. That said, are you *incapable* of empathy? Meaning, if you have had a similar experience to another person and they tell you about it, can you relate on an emotional level? Do you derive pleasure from others’ pain? Do you, as a regular, every day state of being, feel like you are removed, almost like a 3rd person observer in life and are always faking life and/or deliberately act to provoke responses in others solely for entertainment’s sake?

Circle of friends often decreases as people age, not unusual. It may not be desirable, but normal. It happens for a lot of reasons.

A number of the things listed (i.e. ego, all or nothing, desire for easy lifestyle with no effort, just want to have fun) makes me wonder how old you are. I’m thinking late teens, early 20s maybe?

Fights/arguments have to do with impulse control, which develops over time. It’s a biological and skill development thing.

The reality of day to day existence is it is at times mundane and boring, repetitive if you will, particularly if you’re studying or working at something that you have no interest in or are not passionate about.

No “really good” family relationships may contribute to tendency to fight/argue, depending. May also be a factor with respect to lack of a good romantic relationship, again depending. There are a lot of reasons a person may not have had a truly nice romantic relationship yet.

So, yeah, not sure any of that is helpful, but there you have it lol my opinion

[Thunder Bow]

Ask what is Right with you. Why keep insisting there is some thing "Wrong" with you?

[Angel428]

You sound cool af (just saying) and you should check out the book The Psychopath Test. It's an interesting read and would let you decide for yourself whether or not you are genuinely psychopathic. Although in my opinion, everyone is a little psychopathic.

[pegasus]

I would suggest googling personality types such as Myers Briggs test, it's helpful to know more about yourself. If you feel there is something wrong with you, you might like to try these online tests >>> Psychological Tests and Quizzes We can't diagnose you from what you have written here.