[Irisheyes_80]

Hello everyone, not looking for a diagnosis or anything but I'm frustrated with the current situation with pdoc and tdoc and my diagnosis ...

Just a little back history, I wad diagnosed with MDD when I was 15, (eons ago) put on meds...had therapy, did that for a few years decided I was better quit both. Did ok for a few more years and then started to show symptoms again severely. Tried to cope on my own for several more years.
A year and a half ago I decided to go back in to a pdoc, who diagnosed me with BP1 along with my MDD and put me on an anti psychotic.
I also started seeing a tdoc at this time as well.
After a few months pdoc left the practice for whatever reason and they brought in a new pdoc. New pdoc said I was not BP1 and took me off of the antipsychotic, gave me GAD and PTSD diagnosis. Put me on a anti depressant and a benzo, that combination has been working well for me and I am finally able to cope....BUT, Since the depression and anxiety symptoms are being treated, I've noticed that my irritability has gone from mild to raging anger, hostile, hateful and sometimes violent (as in throwing things and destroying stuff). My relationships with the people closest to me are suffering because when I get into these "episodes" I take it out on them. There is no specific trigger for them they happen at random...sometimes many times a week, or maybe only a few times a month. I will come up with irrational and unreasonable ideas in my head and even though I know these ideas are ridiculous, I just keep elaborating and run with it until I get enraged and act out, and when I do things or say things in anger I know they are wrong and I am being hurtful to people but I can't stop. This has been going on for a while now.
I talked to pdoc about it and she told me it was part of my depression and anxiety. - I don't feel that it is.
I talked to tdoc about it and she told me it could be PMDD and has me charting everything for the next 2 months. But I'm not sure it's that either.
I just want to get this figured out, I hate being like this, I don't want to do these things and Im probably about to lose my relationship because of it.
Any input would be appreciated.

[avlady]

have you had any head injury? i did and you explained how i felt before i was on meds. its an awful life off meds as i learned off meds. i say please see your doc and get on meds again.good luck

[pegasus]

Hello, well the anger and frustration you feel can be part of depression and anxiety and also might be part of the stage of psychotherapy that you're at. Just know that anger is an ok emotion if it is managed in the right way. It's ok to have feelings, see if you can find safe ways to let it out. There will be triggers even if you don't think there is, so it is a good idea to chart when these feelings rear up. Keep your pdoc and T doc informed. Let it out safely ok.

[Irisheyes_80]

Originally Posted by avlady

have you had any head injury? i did and you explained how i felt before i was on meds. its an awful life off meds as i learned off meds. i say please see your doc and get on meds again.good luck

I've never had a serious head injury no. Thank you though!

[MickeyCheeky]

I don't have any advice.. but just know that we're listening