[thatgirlonline101]

I know im a very introverted person and i take alot of time to reflect. But i also have a hard time being around people and having relationships infact i hate texting people and i hardly ever hang out with freinds. I do not have a mental health diagnosis but i am curious as to if i do. My freinds always wonder and get upset at me for not keeping in touch but i do it on purpose infact i even purposefully try to loose their phone number and i am so self conscious it almost suffocates me. one time in a dating relationship i refused to talk to my boyfreind and i felt really frustrated with myself, i stopped talking to him completly. I dont have close relationships with anyone , i think it is beacuse of my past aswell with broken relationships, but to be honest id rather be alone , but there is a part of me that wants to have relationships with people . in fact i hate myself for being this way but i cant change

For me this type of behavior stemmed from anxiety, which I am treating with medications and therapy. I don't know if it's the same for you, but therapy is always a decent place to start to help you figure out what is going on.

[MickeyCheeky]

Have you tried seeking for a therapist, maybe? Even if you don't have a MI, it can be helpful for change.

[thatgirlonline101]

I have been told i should go for counselling and i think i should definitly take your advice. Thanks so much!