[Desel]

I've always been a very sensible person. One of those persons that almost cries when being shout at and is very empathic. But a few months ago I started noticing a few changes in my personality. I was becoming less and less sensible. At first I didn't really care. It was only about small details. Maybe I wouldn't cry in a sad movie or I was less concerned with the problems of other. But time flew y and I started noticing that I was more and more insensitive. I was worried, but not very much. But a few weeks ago, everything started to change. I started thinking about me, about humans, about society and other things. And I started to really dislike society. I was anxious, I didn't want to think about my future. And then, my best friend and I stopped talking. It was all my fault and I really harmed her. I didn't mean to but I still did. And I didn't shed more that two tears. I didn't really miss her. I was okay being alone. And even though I knew I harmed her I didn't get sad. That was the first sign that something was wrong. A few days later, I made really angry a friend. And it's completely normal, I was a total asshole. Again, I didn't care. Thankfully, I'm not completely insensitive. Two or three days ago a friend was in danger and could've died. I was texting her and she suddenly dissapeared. I got really anxious and started crying. Luckily, she was okay. I also have been having small crisis about what is happening to me. They actually make me feel better. But today's crisis was surprisingly light. And that's not okay. I've been investigating, and there are many disorders that fit with this. But I don't think is a good idea to self-diagnose some random disorder. I can't get professional help, I really don't want my parents to know and I'm a minor and here you can't have psychological help without your parents permission. What is happening to me? What should I do?

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC. It would really help if you could be evaluated by a professional. Can you go to your GP for some input? Your parents wouldn't have to know why you are going. I don't know what's happening to you. Hopefully some other posters will. Best wishes.

[Desel]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Hello. Welcome to PC. It would really help if you could be evaluated by a professional. Can you go to your GP for some input? Your parents wouldn't have to know why you are going. I don't know what's happening to you. Hopefully some other posters will. Best wishes.

As I said, where I live I can't go to a psychologist without my parents permission. Even if I found one I don't have the money to pay them (I'd have to ask my parents and stuff).

[pegasus]

Hi, depression and anxiety can mask feelings. I'm not diagnosing, I'm just saying that it's good you are aware there is something going on. Is there a school counselor or trusted adult at the school that you feel you could talk to? Sharing your feelings will help so continue to use Psych Central as a self help tool. Knowledge of mental health in general will help.