[WishIWereAStone]

My continued feelings of sadness and hopelessness are what brought me to this site, yes I feel depressed and overwhelmed and have most of my life. However I still function most days, I go to work, I do what I need to do for the next day, etc etc so I question that I am clinically depressed. I read other posts here and hear how difficult many others have it and question my own self, am I just having a pity party???
I have social problems as well, always have but my physical disability made them even worse, again I still go through the day and the next, lonely and wishing I could make friends and that people wanted me around, then I read other posts and again question myself.
I have seen mental health professionals in the past for a few occurrances and either got past those times or lied enough to get the Dr. Never has anyone delved into my entire life, so again I question myself, should that have happened? Could I be better off now if then I was more open or they more astute?
I also have an idea, personal belief that some health professionals will "find" things wrong with a patient, I mention not liking crowds and now I am agoraphobic for example. I have had this happen with a family doctor and a physical ailment that he blew out of proportion.
Basically I don't want to take away from those that are really suffering and at the same time I worry that perhaps I am suffering more than I even realize.
If any of this makes sense I welcome the comments.

[Row Jimmy]

Your best bet is to be your own advocate and let things happen. When I went to see a psychiatrist for the first time around age 50, I knew I had issues but at the same time was apprehensive about what he would say. I explained my symptoms, my history, and then sat and listened. Go with what they say and take it to whatever level you want. Remember - knowledge is power. Once we *know*, we can move forward. I don't subscribe to the notion that clinicians find things wrong with people. Psychiatrists have a challenging job because there's no pathology to use, only a story/history from the patient. If you don't believe the diagnosis, at least you went and heard them out. Then, you need to be honest with yourself and work on moving forward.

[Astrada]

I relate to where you are coming from, a lot lol. But just remember you are important too. I would give a therapist another shot. Try not to let the paranoia stop you from doing what's good for you. Do you know the poem "Desiderata"? I love it and it reminds me we are all important. Take Care.

[Sunflower123]

I agree with the posters above. Please consider being evaluated by a professional. Your depression is no less important than anybody elses’s. When you go, you need to speak up and let the pdoc know what is going on with you. You are worth it and you deserve to feel better. Best wishes.

[WishIWereAStone]

Thanks all. Astrada, I'm not familiar with that poem but I will look it up, thank you.

[ReptileInYourHead]

Hey wish, don’t worry about those who may have it worse, you have a right to be happy and you should take steps to realize that.
You can post here without fear of judgement.

[Rincad]

Listen everyone is different, meaning that distress can not be based upon others. You sound like you could really do with help. I'm pretty sure you got it bad. Don't worry about if they've got it worse, it'll only fuel the depression. Depression feeds off of your insecurities and worry and doubt. It intensifies it and it only gets worse without treatment. I'm not just referring to medication I'm referring to therapy too. Not every perfessional is like that. But you can do yourself a favor and at least go to therapy, it might help you feel better. Time is a test yes but sometimes you have venture out and get better. I hope that helps.

[WishIWereAStone]

Originally Posted by Rincad

Listen everyone is different, meaning that distress can not be based upon others. You sound like you could really do with help. I'm pretty sure you got it bad. Don't worry about if they've got it worse, it'll only fuel the depression. Depression feeds off of your insecurities and worry and doubt. It intensifies it and it only gets worse without treatment. I'm not just referring to medication I'm referring to therapy too. Not every perfessional is like that. But you can do yourself a favor and at least go to therapy, it might help you feel better. Time is a test yes but sometimes you have venture out and get better. I hope that helps.

Thanks Rincad ! I read your profile and with this response I must say I am impressed, you seem to have excellent insight in my opinion. You have been here for me, I would happy to listen to you as well.

[Rincad]

Thank you! I love been told I'm a highly intuitive by practically be anyone who knows the word. I'm also a person that likes to listen to other people and help them. So if you want more advice or anything you can pm me.

[WishIWereAStone]

[QUOTE=Rincad;5895176 So if you want more advice or anything you can pm me.[/QUOTE]

Same here, pm anytime, I may not always respond quickly, but I will respond.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Just wanted to say I am sorry I missed your posts. You are an important person - and like I tell everyone: if you feel pain, that pain is important and valid and worthy of attention. There are no accurate measurements of pain. Please don't try to pin them on yourself. Take care of yourself.
❤