I feel dumb

My brain feels empty, not even foggy just like there’s nothing in there. I hope I’m not about to have a meltdown, I am under a lot of stress right now and I’m trying not to just shut down completely, but that is what I want to do.

Try to handle this the best way you can. If things get too stressful can you contact a doctor or perhaps have a check-in at the Hospital Whatever can help You! Please do not give up. Stay Strong. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @annoyedgrunt84, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

It’s just more that I want to shut down and stare at the wall all day. I’m just tired of fighting.

in your first post in this thread you stated "I hope I’m not about to have a meltdown"

that depends upon what a meltdown is in your location....

here where I am a "meltdown" is when an uncontrollable reaction to when someone .......is........ feeling so emotional, so much anger, that they cry uncontrollably, lashing out at other people, some people throw things, do damage, ... children usually toddlers have meltdowns frequently aka temper tantrums when they have so many feelings and emotions and thoughts going on in their heads that they cant handle it. many adults who go through this go through this when they go through the rages, crying associated with menopaause.

I myself go through "meltdowns" occasionally due to my MS and my Depression.

here where I am having an empty brain (no thoughts, no emotions, wanting to stare at walls all day, giving up the fight, ...) is called many things like depression, calmness, relaxation, meditation and other things...

my suggestion if you think you are heading for a "meltdown" talk with your treatment providers. theres treatment for this. and the same for if this mind quietness bothers you.

I'm aware that I'm making things more difficult than they need to be. Today it feels like the gears in my head are grinding and grinding but not getting anywhere. It's not a calm feeling for sure the gears are grinding away but nothing is happening. I don't know, I didn't sleep well at all last night I may need to take a nap or just see how I feel after I get up tomorrow. When I say I feel dumb I mean I feel like I can't keep track of conversations or put thoughts together in my head in a way that is coherent.

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I’m just tired of fighting.

Can you define what you are fighting?

I understand that feeling. For me it was before I left my bad marriage & just existing with him was a battle. I couldn't focus on anything because my whole mind & emotions were totally caught up in the fight. I couldn't even retain what I read. As soon as I removed myself from that environment that was constant fighting, I was able to regain control of myself & my mind. Lol....at first I attributed my mind functioning again to the omega-3 I was taking BUT my mind continued to function & I could put words to my thoughts even after I quit taking the omega-3 because my whole mind was free from the fighting it had been totally focused on because I had been living with it 24/7. Sometimes our environment is a key to understanding why we feel the way we feel. Sometimes we just rather feel guilty for blaming it rather than trying to do something to change the circumstances.