Where to go from here?

I’m in the hospital for medical right now and they’ve discussed discharging me because I’m at the point I don’t need to be taking up this bed since as long as I take the antibiotics and don’t retear my esophagus I’ll live.

I don’t have anywhere to go. I will be one of those ****s sleeping in hospital waiting rooms, in a tent in the park, in an ATM lobby, and napping at the library during the day. I got kicked out of my last shelter and there’s another one in town, but I’ve heard that place is worse than spending nights on the streets.

I would go back to earning money through music, but gigs are like $50-$100 if I can even secure 1-3 a week would be a gift from God. Thinking about doing lessons too, but idk what my rate would be or how many students I’d be able to handle.

Housing crisis hit especially hard in Southern NH since we have practically no taxes compared to the rest of the country and everyone from MA is being priced out and coming here, raising prices to the point a studio is unaffordable for anybody I’ve talked to about it in months (although in all fairness only have talked to people sleeping at the library and in shelters or at the Soup kitchen). I’ve been trying to get a 2-3 bedroom apartment or condo with people I met at the shelter so we can split the rent and it’s not like any of us have super high standards.

Might I do freelance writing? Try and get a “real” job? Maybe somewhere like a farm or campground will provide a place to stay on the grounds? Go back to finding one night stands and chew, screw, sleep, leave? Become a volunteer at a 24/7 peer support respite overnights and rely in their food and hope there are easy nights I can sleep through? Apply to every mental health/eating do in the country and hope one of them will take my insurance AND say I meet criteria? Go back to school for a dorm, education, and a campus job?

Idk what I’m capable of right now. I’m dissociating to the point idk what’s happening ever. Hospital staff keep threatening to tube me for restricting behaviors. Not sure if I’mbipoar depressed or just feel that way because of shyt physical health.

I am terrified they’ll discharge me today.

Min wage here is $7.25/hr and the cheapest rent I can find is like $1200/mo

@MuddyBoots I am sorry you are in such a tough situation.

A friend had applied for services in NH from DHS Homeless Services | New Hampshire Department of Health and Human Services

Hope you get a couple days to recover and make a plan for yourself.

CANDC

I have.a suggestion, I know a little about this stuff where I used to volunteer at the detox facility for the low income people that did not have proper medical insurance to pay such facilities though they were in great need of medical detox. Many of these people had squandered what resources they did have, and one does not go out overnight even if you find a job and equate that with a place to be living at which is proper. Go, or get in touch with your local with your local Department of Social Services, explain your situation and they should shuffle you in as quickly as possible. By federal law, backed up by most states, there is emergency housing, and they can try to get you onto disability services. This is done on a need basis, many don't even know about these programs. If you qualify you can be placed in section-A housing and get social security disability or SSDI disbursed rapidly to you. I never dealt with the facet at the treatment center, but often talked with the counsellors that did. In the large city I live next to is a conglomeration of many churches, that house and feed the homeless. It used to be (My Cities) area rescue ministries,but now is know by a different acronym. At the end of every fiscal year, they are usually in a budget shortfall, I have paid this for them several times. Between off of that, I would think they could get you in some housing, and enough income to support yourself.These kinds of things are the kind of things are not the things I never find spending my taxes on. Most large metropolitan areas have similar setups.It Is nothing short of obscene of how wealthy this country is yet people find themselves in situations like this. It is one of the things that makes me so made at the place I put my life on all the time. You just get connected with the right people and let them work their fast tracking magic. As wealthy as this country is, and there are those such as yourself find themselves in this situation, It is nothing short of disgrace. Contact your local healthcare department and get them to fast track you in. The smaller city I live close to has a program they will pay for you a hotel or a motel room, as they process this out. So, sorry, and in this the country I put my life on the line for more than once is failing you, and many others. I would try this approach and not sure why councillors at the hospital are not helping you do this or pointing you that way. The best of luck to you, if you lived near me I would help you.

Thank you, and especially thanks for your service. Yes, America has its issues, but I will say I am thankful we have shelters and places you can go to for a warm meal like certain church run places.

I’m getting all the help I can get from the SSA right now. Just waiting another 6 years for section 8 to come through.

I still don't know what more I can do.

I've applied for city, state, and federal section 8, public housing, transitional housing, residential housing for those with chronic mental illness/bridge grant, group homes, and section 811. I don't know if there's anything else I should've applied for, but the waitlist for these programs are ridiculously long.

I think I just need to get to finding a roommate to split costs with and magically being able to hold down a full time job currently hiring criminals with a spotty work record that's consistently giving me 40+hours a week that I can actually handle showing up for every day every week. If I live alone I'd have to get at least a $32.29/hr salary (from Living Wage Calculator
- Living Wage Calculation for New Hampshire) Roommate will get that down to $16.15/hr, so I have to find someone who actually would live with me because obviously there are no $32.39/hr jobs I can get. They'd have to offer some pretty damn good health insurance too and be okay with me not being the most consistent person ever because we all know my unstable *** with shyt physical health is going to be in the hospital 5-10 weeks out of the year.

I seriously lack in being able to figure out the world of living. I just want to not be couch hopping and wandering the streets anymore.

Yeah, I know I should start with volunteering and jobs that will hire literally anyone (aka the minimum or close to minimum wage PT jobs) first, but I'd also lose my SSDI when I do that (I'm making the assumption I'd screw up one of the tiny details of TTW that they hide), so I'd temporarily go from getting $900/mo that I'm trying to force into actually getting to around $600-900/mo depending on how many shifts are available.

Again, just want roof, food, water without being a food-stealing lump on someone else's couch. Seriously, what am I not doing that I should be doing?

What about college? It is apparent you are darn smart. There should be grants for people restarting and shyte like that.

That's actually a really good idea. I could go anywhere I want, have some housing, get an on campus job, get on the good side of a few professors and have some references, have a degree and open up some opportunities, find out my legitimate strengths instead of just being the jack of all trades.

Going for it.

Im not just another pretty face ya know.

I used to say that at work and my mostly male coworkers would laugh like i made a joke.

Also, thanks for enumerating all the stuff i meant. I am getting reeeeally lazy in my old age.

I don’t know about the pretty face part haha but yes you have some fine ideas. You don’t speak like an old fart either