[spacecase]

I've never been able to express to people how I feel. I just can't put it into words. This goes from not being able to tell people why I'm angry at them (no one will ever now I'm angry in the first place), to not being able to share with someone that I'm crazy depressed. I'll be a total wreck inside, or when I'm by myself, but once I'm in the presence of someone else, it's like everything shuts down. I can't explain how frustrating this is. All my problems go unresolved because I can't communicate them, and this creates even more problems. I don't know what to do with myself. It doesn't matter how hard a try. I can't get it out. It's like my voice is taken away from me.

(((spacecase)))

Are you in therapy? How about journaling?--and you can always vent, and rant here--everyone does---and we'll be supportive here...theo

[ruffy]

(((spacecase))) I once met a guy at church who felt comfortable enough to share with me that he was recovering from depression, drug addiction, alcoholism, just released from jail...I could so relate to his forms of self medicating with all these things for his depression although Ive never gone to those extremes and we were getting on well until I told him what my story was. I was bipolar. You would have thought I had told him Id shot someone and ripped out their intestines with my bare teeth. I could actually see him react physically as he stumbled backwards and almost fell. We were standing still by the way. Now I keep my mouth shut. If someone that messed up cant relate to me then who can? Doesnt mean I wont try again in the future but I think I know what you mean. I always feel comfortable sharing here at PC and its good practice. Keep sharing!!!

Welcome, spacecase. My thought is for you to type your concerns like you did for us. You may want to consider professional help. Your writings can get you started.

Good luck.

I found it very helpful to journal, and to share my journal with my therapist.

Byzantine said it all-----theo

How are you doing, spacecase?

[thine_self_untrue]

Spacecase,
I feel that way a lot of the time too. Journaling can often help me decompress and "let the words out" but sometimes it seems like there are just no words that quite capture how I feel.

I sort of do that sometimes with the anger.. It's like I freeze and am just stunned and caught in the moment. Then after it's over and I'm alone..I feel the anger and I'm like..I should have said this, that, etc.