[ChinaDoll531]

the last time I posted around here I was in a big ditch with no end in sight. things are since looking up. counseling is almost complete, the combo of meds, and perseverence!

yesterday, though, I got to feel true joy for the first time in years! it was so amazing! My dearest friend came home from China after being gone for three years and he brought his fiancee with him. normally I would be a nervous wreck worrying about whether we'd still be friends, whether she'd like me or hate me or just want me to go away because I'm a girl. I'd panic about whether my husband would like him and whether he'd like my husband or not. I would have been bent over with fear and overwhelming nervousness about all the people at the party... and when I left I would have paniced about never seeing him again. it would have been endless and all consuming, but no, it wasn't!

I was a little nervous, mostly about meeting her, but nothing unusual or unhealthy. But for the most part I was calm, cool, and collected. I walked through the door and was immediatly greeted with the best hug ever! I had missed it so. and proceeded to spend the next 4 hours in conversation with he and his fiancee, whom I love!, and then we drove them home and had another hour together in the car. I could hardly contain all the happiness bouncing around inside of me. it was amazing!!! and to make it all even better, we're all hanging out on wednesday again, and, of course!, I'm flying out to see them in seattle over spring break! I'' going to miss them so much when they leave thursday, but I won't be devestated. I'll still be excited and joyful. this feeling won't wear off for a while!!!! I can still barely sit still at all!!!

[eskielover]

What a beautiful time you had. It's so wonderful getting back with people we haven't seen in a long time. I am so glad that you were able to put all your worries out of your mind & that they didn't creep in there to haunt you. How wonderful to see that past behavior has been handles & put into perspective so that you can have a much more normal enjoyable life. It's wonderful to see that all the counseling & meds & hard work on your part have payed off.

A Kodak moment.

[ChinaDoll531]

it was another great day! cut short, sadly, but great! we went putt putt golfing and played air hockey before they had to leave. they're flying out tomorrow and I'll miss them terribly! they decided to come back in August after their wedding and they're going to stay at our place for the week!!!!!! pretty much made my year to hear that!!!

[eskielover]

How exciting.....when things start to go well in life, it gives us such a much better outlook on everything. I am sure their wedding will be beautiful. If your avitar is the kodak moment of them, they look like a lovely couple.

Live really is good when we can finally see good things & feel it's not just filled with the bad. Glad you have so much to look forward to.

[Junerain]

Another great day!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!

I, too, had a beautiful day at our local amusement park with my best friend, Jennifer..


Here's to good and true friendships that LAST!!!!!!

[Ygrec23]

Good For You, China Doll!! You've done it!!

[ChinaDoll531]

thank you so much for the support and affirmations!

eskielover ~ hehe, that's my husband and I at our wedding about 6 months ago! thanks for the compliment, though!!!