why Im here

lucky137621 · Nov 03, 2010, 11:50 PM

Ok so I meet this guy on Facebook that I knew in like 8th grade(Im now 34)and Im in a relationship at the time(15 year realationship)and we sent a couple of messages back annd fourth, and he gave me his number. My reply to that was that I gave him mine. So we started light texting and he would always want me to call him but I wouldn't. We would share a lot with eachother but through texting. As this went on I started to realize the things I was lacking in my relationship was emotional and intellectual stimulation. These are things that I felt were now a big priority and I ended my relationship. Now this friend of mine is also a phyc. major and I feel he really knew more than I did about feelings and matters of emotion. So he would ask me very personal questions about my innermost thoughts, about my soul and how I was feeling. I tried to end the friendship 3 times but he would talk me back "saying theres nothing wrong with exploring eachother". Iam not ever trying to pusue you romantically. He would say things like" its worth the risk" and "trust" and" Im always here for you".So naturally being one that is not easily swayed into friendships or revealing innermost thoughts I fought it. Til one day I decided that this self-exploration was really having a posotive effect on my life. So I opened "pandoras box" and pretty much let all my inhabitions go and opened up. Now I have super strong feelings for this person. He use to text me every night"how was your day" and we would talk. Now its been two week and Ive initiated every conversation. I feel like hes the one who talked me into this friendship and hes trying to give me the brush off. I am having a hard time letting it go and would love to just forgette it ever happened. I really need some advice on how to deal with this. I almost feel like it was a challenge and he diddnt realize I was a real person with real feelings.