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Hmmmm, grammer, writing, reading, spelling. I am sure I make mistakes on all of them, at least in my posts at PC. But then again, I am busy concentrating on the emotions I am trying to either express or overcome at the time.

Let us see, or let's see, does one need grammer and spelling all the time? For me it is missing words that are a result of years of being corrected which interrupted my brain to speach pattern. And I have also noticed that living with two dislexics and being the one to have to correct spelling has proved to be another type of interruption.

When I read posts on PC I am very sympathetic about mis-spelled words and even grammer. I understand that the most important part of the process it that of releasing the emotions and frustration trapped within the individual. And I also recognize that with todays endless supply of short cuts in word usage to convey a message, grammer and spelling has really changed.

I remember I was critisized in a post for writing thru instead of through. The night before I was trying to learn the new short cuts that are constantly used today, especially in chat. I really felt old in chat as I hadn't done it ever and I don't text either. There seems to be a whole new language developing today and I find that it tends to challenge me even more.

And then there is the question of medications. If I am writing something on PC and I am also struggling with a medication and an anxiety attack, I tend to lose my way.
And what about the message that is struggling to be conveyed? I see when I am really struggling with PTSD and the circle of emotions that plague me I may write in circles too. I can also see that when I am battling with a strong bout of depressive thoughts and feelings that I struggle in pushing out constuctive thoughts there too. I try to work my way through by attacking any challenge for expression here at PC.

I like the fact that PC provides me with the protection of being annonymous as I am not here to fall apart, I come for the opposite, putting myself back together. I am trying to become a more humbled person and make efforts to not be so self critical.
I find that often I really struggle and use PC to try to concentrate in a 1,2,3 process rather than floundering in confusion.

And my statistics, oh those are there to reflect. I can use that to gauge my thoughts and emotions as I struggle one day at a time. And I especially appreciate one friend I have that can see when I struggle through reading my posts. It is so nice to see that someone sees that I am really struggling through a bad day or few days. And it is equally nice when that same person recognizes that I must be improving as my posts are conveying a clearer trend of thought. And to be honest sometimes the struggle is so bad that I don't always see it.

Expression is a trigger for me, especially the criticism of expression. I have been trying to understand my triggers that are now so hard wired into me I wonder if there is any real way of alleviating them altogether. And because I have finally had that one straw that really broke me I am only just beginning to look at a long history of psychological abuse. And one thing that always remained constant was an ongoing interruption and disrespect for my efforts towards expression.

All I can say at this point on my behalf is that if anyone reads my posts and spends all their efforts on spelling, missed words, and even some repetitive thought patterns and it bothers you? Just put me on your ignore list, that is what everyone else did in my past. I had the biggest trouble with just a few words, NO, STOP IT, DONT TAKE THAT, IT IS MINE, IT IS NOT MY IMAGINATION, YOU ARE DRUNK AND YOU ARE HURTING ME. In the meantime I will just keep trying to correct the damage that has occured over many years of mental abuse.

I do however enjoy the expressive thoughts and gentle challenges presented by those who wish to help me achieve a stronger sense of expression. That in itself is so much better than the barrage of criticism I endured growing up that created my struggle to speak altogether.

Who is smarter, one who can speak and write good english or one who cannot, but, can build a house, stone wall, put in a sink or toilet and manage (through sheer resourcefullness) to carve out a living in spite of a poor economy while the person who retains good grammer cannot?

Though my husband struggles with spelling and writing, it never ceases to amaze me how truely resourseful he is at finding ways to make a living. And I would rather have food on the table and a roof over my head than to hear a well presented gramatical expression of why we are not making it.

Open Eyes

Going bonkers... We are replacing the heat pump... OMG... size, SEER, price ..Carrier has several different units, priced of course from high to low.... two are coming today to give estimates...... i think "oops" they both might be from the same company.. I talked to so many companies today and I lost my notes and with all the call backs, I didn't know who I was talking to..

I wonder when someone decides to click the de-friend button ...do they think how this hurts the other person? I've never once defriended anyone and it happened again.

I'm becoming obsessed with finding a job...any job. I want to work but it's my lack of experience that stands in the way........

(((((( Lynn P))))))) Yes it does hurt, especially if you don't know why the person all of a sudden defriended you. At the very least it would be nice to know why right?
I have not defriended anyone either. I always remember that each one of my friends is stuggling and the last thing I want is to add to their often low self esteem that comes with having just about any issue.

And I even wondered if someone can visit your friend list and delete a friend without you knowing, can someone do that?

You are a good person Lynn, and I know you try to be sympathetic.

Open Eyes

Thank you ((Open Eyes)) for the support. Only the person themselves can defriend another ...not anyone else. I would only do it, if I felt I was being stalked and not due to a misunderstanding. I would rather talk things out. Feels like Middle school where some friendships are fickle and fleeting.

...........(((((( Lynn P)))))))

Yes lynn and you do make an effort to talk things out, that is one thing I really like about you. Unfortunately some psychological issues lend to behaviors that can be unpredictable and as you say Middle schoolish and fickle and fleeting. But that is what is sad about certain psychological issues that are dealt with here at PC.

And one often never knows that a post may be a trigger to someone who thinks you are critisizing them in some way. And I know I have those triggers myself. But when it does happen I find that it is very theraputic for me to express my emotions and then realize that it was just a trigger I didn't really understand about myself.

And PC has really helped me with that as I have to learn what my triggers are so I can address them. And so far I have been met with some very understanding people who know more about triggers than I ever did. When I came here I didn't even know what triggers meant. And I definitely have them and am working at not letting them upset me and I have to say I have found triggers that I was so unaware I had.

Open Eyes

Are you talking about PC or Congress?

(((((lynn))))) sorry that happened to you

HA! Today is Wednesday, I thought it was Tuesday..

LOL Have you not been reading my posts? I know I have talked very strongly about, Oh I dont even think it qualifies as Middle school behavior, more grammer school stuff in Congress.

Oh and I have to think about another statement I made about grammer and the use of the english language. I had mentioned that I would rather have food on the table and a roof over my head than hear all the correct gramatical and intellectual reasoning behind not being able to make it.
And I would have to say that I feel the same way about Our Polictics that are going on now as well. So many well written speaches that truely carry nothing more than a well thought out way of expressing "No, we don't really have a plan".

Open Eyes

((((((((((Lynn)))))))))))) Sorry this happened to you I don't defriend people, but I only accept friend requests from members I know and talk to often. This is probably petty, but oh well........

Right? So many empty promises.

Thank you everyone for the wave of support - I didn't expect such an outpouring like this, for the frustration I was feeling.

Speaking of governments and house discussions - at least here in N. America we keep it at the discussion level, even though it can be petty and mud slinging at times...Canadians included. Not like the Japanese who get into mass fist fights on the house floor - men and women together.

Mm........lol

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Ok not to change the subject but I need to vent a bit.

I talked in an earlier post about lieing and how much I hate it. Well, I was discussing that I had done a job and was told a check was sent out and it never came. Then I was told that they got the envelope with the check returned to them. Now they have sent me plenty of mail over the years and they have used the post office excuse before for not getting a check out to me.

So I had asked them to just send me the envelope marked returned mail so I could see. Oh, they didn't like that and quickly said they had already shredded it. Then they asked me if I was accusing them of lying. And I didn't say that word, they did, key to a liar being caught. And they told me that they would mail the check yesterday. Gee, I got it in the mail today, no three week wait there hmmm. And then I opened up the envelope and saw the date written on the check for yesterday and then a little notation of it being a new check to replace another check.

Ah ha, I think they forgot which lie they told as they originally said that they would have to take more time to cancel the check they supposedly sent out and write another one. But they are pretty stupid because had they really gotten the check they supposedly sent back, all they had to do is put the same check with the original date in a new envelope. And thus my suspicion of them lying in the first place and using my money to pay their bills was right in the first place.

But what did all this mean to me. Well, it put me behind and I didn't get to pay one of those big credit card bills for veterinary care from my neighbors dog. And so now I am going to be charged a big fee for being late. And, I may even lose whatever interest rate that I had and will have to now pay out even more.

And tomarrow I have an appointment with my attorney and I have no idea yet how I am going to address him. I did have a deposition scheduled that he never informed me of and I did ask him and let him know that it was important for me to know. And he did yell at me with possible dates that sent me in a downward spiral for 4 days to the point where I could not do a job. And my husband did the job and my husband is on the leanient side (excuse any mispelling I am venting) and the people were disruptive and disrespectful and did not follow my rules at all and they ran at the pony with a pop gun that went off and now they are blaming me for the pony stepping sideways in a slight startle and in doing so stepped on someones foot.

And I know that my attorney just forgot about the deposition until the day before and he just cancelled it. And he never sent me any information telling me it was on the schedule. And when he called me to tell me he cancelled it and told me it was because we did not have a meeting before hand, my reply was that if I had been informed to begin with and he had made an effort to even make a meeting it could have taken place. And this is not the first time a deposition has been scheduled and I was never informed. And, I am aware that the case cannot proceed until the opposing side has all the discovery which means the depositons.

Get a new attorney? I called around and tried, everyone I called knows my attorney and doesn't want to get involved. And the last attorney I talked to suggested that I stay the course and try to keep on top of it. I can't keep on top of something I am not informed of. And I can't make someone remember who is having trouble remembering because he is now 78 and that part is somewhat declining.

Byz, that word you are into, love of the truth, I do love the truth but unfortunately all I ever do is pay for the lies of others. So what word could express that? Because maybe I need to have a word printed in bold print on a T shirt that reminds people to be honest. Something that tells them that I am so overwhelmed with the price of other people's lies that I am psychologically bankrupt.

But that is the trend now, lieing. It is so acceptable and I see it everywhere. Well I don't know how to play that game, it has proven to be way to expensive for me in every way imaginable.

Yes I have a meeting tomarrow and I have no idea what triggers will come up or how I will fair. Today was not very good, I am in a lot of pain from anxiety that I cant seem to think away.

Open Eyes

Woe is me.................bye bye.....gee! Another one bites the dust. shrug shrug

^^^^^ yeah, you got it theodora, that is basically what they all say.

Open Eyes

And heartless too!

Open Eyes

Ain't that a kicker? "life isn't fair, ma"--no, and I ne'er told you it was. byie

And another one just flew overhead whistle--did you see that?? WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My mother told me, "People can be strange, she didn't use swear words, was always a lady. She told me that life isn't fair either.

She also told me that many people are obtuse and I wouldn't always understand it because I was so smart. She also told me that people often say hurtful things and feel they are somehow above everyone else. She told me to not waste my time on those people because they often like to hide their obtuseness and obtrude on the kindness of others.

And then she told me, just feel sorry for them and walk away. They are just too obtuse to get it when they hurt someone.

Open Eyes

Your welcome Lynn, your a good hearted person and you do offer a lot of support here.

Well the Japanese must feel actions speak louder than words. No, in America it is the art of using words to confuse and deny and escape and even lie, they like Americans to be obtuse and think they know what they are doing while they fumble around creating more debt and wars we don't need.

Open Eyes

And then.........sometimes they can be very kind and loving...............

So we circle back to your original statement:

"Jesus ****ing Christ! People are strange!" well put!!!

I like that. I applaud you, noneedtoknow!!!

Now I'm humming "People are strange, when you're a stranger,,,,,,,When you're straaange,
No one remembers your name, when you're straaaaange.." my my my, I am so very strange!!

Oh! and proud of it!

EMINENT/IMMINENT/IMMANENT



By far the most common of these words is “eminent,” meaning “prominent, famous.” “Imminent,” in phrases like “facing imminent disaster,” means “threatening.” It comes from Latin minere, meaning “to project or overhang.” Think of a mine threatening to cave in. Positive events can also be imminent: they just need to be coming soon. The rarest of the three is “immanent,” used by philosophers to mean “inherent” and by theologians to mean “present throughout the universe” when referring to God. It comes from Latin manere, “remain.” Think of God creating man in his own image.

When a government exercises its power over private property it is drawing on its eminent status in society, so the proper legal phrase is “eminent domain.”