[LiteraryLark]

It's not even bipolar depressed, this past couple weeks have been so brutal for me with interviews after interviews that don't seem promising, going to job fairs and workshops to help me perform better at interviews, but it just seems like it's closed door after closed door. On top of that, my parents, mom especially, won't cease to remind me why I need a job to pay rent, pay bills, pay car insurance...none of which I have. I offered to pay for part of a cell phone bill and they won't even let me do that, which means i can't buy the iphone i saved up with my own money to get.

I've known about this camping trip for two weeks and I really wanted to go. My dad took me to get all the supplies, but now I'm just so fried that I don't want to do it. I don't think I'd want to do it even if it was sunny out. But it's going to be muddy and raining and ultimately make me feel more miserable than I already am.

What should I do? I've been with this camping group for 7 years, but I just feel like crap.