I am in a funk. Can't really lift it.

1. I am 46 and having strange medical symptoms. Literally if one symptom finished a new one starts. Last night I could not sleep at all. Woke up at 2 AM. Because I had HORRIFIC restless leg syndrome. I never have it that bad. It is like my entire body is shaking. I might think it was perimenapause but what do you do about that. My doctors are pretty useless. I am starting to feel like I have a disability... but I can't rightly claim it. I need to take at least a day off each week because of the lack of sleep and exhaustion.. not to mention the doctor appointments.

2. I have to take a train to work. I used to have to use a stop that had low parking. I would have to get up early to get a space. This was exhausting and frustrating.

I moved (my home) to a stop that had TONS of parking. Like 700 spaces. And great options for the train. It also had a little coffee shop so when it was like -1 degree outside and the train was late you could just stay warm. The walk from the parking lot wasn't too much and the ride to the station was all back roads. Yesterday to my horror there was a sign that like 400 spaces are now "private parking" and there isn't enough parking spaces. If I want to park I will now have to walk a good long way and there is no guarantee that I will even get a space. Other options are all horrible. With a long drive and or.. a long walk. I never saw it coming that they would take our parking away. So angry about it.

3. I have had a ton of junk in my house forever. I tried so hard to sell it or get people to take it for free but that only lead to wasted time. So I finally had to get rid of it. I called 1800 junk and even though it was just like 7 things.. it cost me $300 dollars. Insane! I feel like the story my life is buying furniture... and then being stuck with it and having to give it away or pay people to take it.

4. I just feel like I am not making money or saving. I invest in some online things and I joined a board about investing. Someone showed their balance in one of these things and it was 500,000. HUH? I mean why is everyone else on the planet so rich? I always feel like i am doing good and then I find out I am wayyyy behind the curve. I used to think my salary was good and then I find out I am one of the lowest paid. I still feel like my expenses are insane every month but I have cut everything to the bone.

Just frustrated and needed to vent.

On the good side.. when I was awake at 4 am me and my cat had some great bonding time. He clearly loves the 3 AM to 6 AM time period and usually mommy isn't there to have fun with him but this morning I was and you should have heard the purrrrssss.

[baboo5]

I am sorry you are having such a hard time.

I hope things improve soon.

Hang in there.