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Do you feel .like me, that you have missed out on your 'fair share' of life. I'm 57 now and really what is the bloody point. I feel and always have done that life is something that goes on on the other side of the looking glass or, like Alice, i can see the beautiful garden but the door isnt big enough for me to go through. I didn't know 3 of my grandparents. My dad died when i was 11. School failed me. Someone else has had my share of sex, friends and partners. Now, without friends, family, job or purpose , whats the point. I started a short CBT course and one of the things to do was plan tomorrows activities today. Sounded good in the session. Do i do it? No, of course i dont. If things were that easy i would have sorted myself out years ago. The problems run far deeper than that. 50 years deeper. Still at least i'm nearer the end of the journey than the beginning. I'm not usually a whiner, this is a rare exception.
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![]() Anonymous37904, gayleggg, healingme4me, kindachaotic, redbandit, tinyrabbit, yellowted
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Sticking with your metaphor I feel like I got bites now and then... here and there. We take what we can get, right? Make the best of it? That didn't sound like whining to me.
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For me, absolutely. If it was a cake, I would maybe have had a crumb or two, that's it. I'm 23 years old but I feel like I've already missed out on so much. I've never had any friends to speak of, I've had terrible relationships with my family, my dad died when I was 20 (not as bad as 11, but still tramatizing). I've spent my entire life incredibly lonely and lost. It sucks. What can I do about it? Not much.
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I feel like someone picked up the whole cake and nailed me in the face as hard as possible.
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I feel like I've missed out on a lot.
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I missed a big portion of my cake most of my life as a child.
I could have had hobbies like most kids when I was younger... I could been in dance at an early age. I could have stayed in one place just to have friends... I moved nearly all of the time. I could have been a more positive and happy person... I lashed out and isolated myself from others around me. Now I have this one small slice of cake left. I got to make it last and worth a while. |
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I used to feel that way; now I suspect I forgot how to bake and apply icing, somehow.
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I got a fair slice. I'm just not sure I like cake...
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Yes, this!
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All of the above. And now and then, incredibly lucky with a big slice; of course cake never lasts...and makes you feel a bit ill after too much....
Now, at 60, I have a dream still, a plan, and hope it works out----I've always kept doing that---doesn't seem to matter how young or old I am, I keep a dream and a plan...sometimes I get that slice, others, well, all of the above... Some days, some years "I give up!'---but silly hope creeps in enough to keep me going...
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I think other people would look at my slice and say it looks lovely.
If they didn't look inside and see the mould, that is. |
![]() healingme4me, IowaFarmGal, spondiferous, Travelinglady
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If life's a cake...somebody definitely spat on my slice.
![]() Okay, I might have taken this metaphor a tad too far. ![]()
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I really do, and I'm 'only' 27. :|
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the only bits i got were the crumbs i fought tooth and nail for! i don't seem to be getting even those any more.
if there is such a thing as your time here being a result of your time in a previous life i certainly must have been a serial killer or something even worse because this life can not be a reward for being a good person! there are three cakes on the table of life, one which replenishes itself every time a bite is taken, one which permits a slice to be taken every now and then, but inbetween you can only nibble the crumbs, then there is the one i was given, the invisible one, the one which you know is there because it sheds the odd crumb once in a while, but you can't see or touch the actual cake! |
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Maybe this time I'm on a diet and can't have cake?
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My life started out okay, and I could have gotten my slice, but I missed the boat during the crunch years, age 25-40, basically pissing away any chance at a slice. At age 25, they say you have your whole life ahead of you. Past age 40, you start getting treated as over the hill. So no crunch cake for me.
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![]() At times like this I say, Make your own ****ing cake and eat the whole thing!!! I just might do that today.... ![]() ![]()
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I feel like I've been handed a life, where I have to go out and make my own cake!
I've had days, where I have felt like I've missed out on my slice, and certain aspects where I feel I wasn't even offered cake. ![]() |
![]() anon20140705, IowaFarmGal, spondiferous, Travelinglady
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I think I got a slice, but there wasn't any icing on it.
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I didn't get my share of cake as a child. And if I did get cake, it had been smashed and dropped in the mud. I got the slices nobody else wanted.
But I'm making up for it now since I can, as someone said, bake my own. ![]() |
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I dunno, maybe missed the whole cake. But the one thing I do know is that I am a 39 year-old 8 year-old... so what I have missed from the adult world I make up in my extended childhood ![]()
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![]() I am making fish burgers and fries for dinner...but I wanted to make sweet potato fries. But that's not what I really want for dinner. What I really want is something more like this: ![]() Or this: ![]()
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Hey, I see a cheesecake in that last pic with a piece missing. Who took my slice?
![]() Last edited by Travelinglady; Aug 12, 2013 at 08:00 PM. |
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I guess it's a good thing I hate cake.
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