[rolan86]

So just leave it to me to once again choose to miss out on halloween. I'm in my room depressed right now on halloween night as I hear parties coming from every corner of the block. I honestly wish I were out tonight. But I chose to work on homework of all things, because I am way behind. I am just wondering if it was worth it. I have an exam, plus the first draft of my 20 page senior thesis due in like 3 days, and I just couldn't afford to party tonight. but... instead of actually doing much homework, I just spend the time sulking in my room and feeling depressed. I mainly didn't go out because I am so behind in school, like if I don't get this stuff done, I very well might fail. And also, because I didn't have a costume. I honestly just didn't have the time. seriously. One day after the other, deadline deadline deadline. when was I supposed to have the time to make one or come up with one?? Plus I couldn't think of ANYTHING to be. I know that sounds weird, but I just couldn't. everything has already been done. I wanted to be original but just couldn't think of anything that I would actually have time to make. So I just chose to not go out tonight. I feel awful right now. Fear of missing out at it's finest right here.

I did the SAME thing last year... can't believe I missed out on another college halloween... seriously like the only one who actually spent the night in the library. I don't know though, I just don't enjoy halloween anymore. Not like I used to. when I was little, halloween was magical. trick or treating, easy costumes like vampires, werewolves, or frankenstein. Enjoying going to fun haunted houses. Now as a 21 year old college student, the magic just feels gone. All halloween in college seems to be about is getting drunk, taking shrooms, and trying to get laid. It just doesn't make me happy to think that halloween, the holiday that was once so special and exciting to me, has now become this. I feel like a halloween scrooge. Just staying home feeling cynical about all this. Or maybe it's just because I'm incredibly introverted these days and don't like to draw attention to myself with a costume. I don't know I just really feel awful right now.

[turquoisesea]

hey you're not the only one in the library. My roomie spent the evening writing an essay. But what we have figured out, is we pick the fun stuff we enjoy and stick to that - so we basically baked something and made a nice dinner. Oh, and MADE costumes. And not skimpy ones - just fun. It's more about the process.... so I was lucky to find someone who was into that as well.

oh yeah. And costumes, don't have to be original. I feel like they're either the standards or else everyone asks "what are you!" so :P no worries

[aakriti90feb]

hey buddy, you have chosen the right direction. stay focused on what u have chosen now.

[eskielover]

I would proud of my choice if I were you......that college scene you described is one I would never want to be a part of, Halloween or not. You chose the responsible thing to do even if it was because you couldn't figure out what you wanted to do......of what to be for your costume.

It's hard when things we had fun doing when we were children....& really is a children's holiday activity.....we realize that we've outgrown.....that transition period of life is always difficult.....but when you do make the wise choices.....that shows an important aspect of responsibility....& with that, you will be successful

[rolan86]

aww thanks guys