[IndieVisible]

I really don't know how to describe this feeling I get some times. It's as if I'm watching a movie I am in. Some times though I get flash back from scenes I don't remember. Sort of like deja vu. But not exactly. I could be driving down the road, and a house may remind me of some thing that feels like a memory almost like from another life. It's not really deja vu, it wasn't the house that made me feel I been there before, but the house reminded me of some thing from the back of my memory that couldn't possibly have happened to me yet it feels real! I catch maybe a few frames from another time or place. It's like a malfunction at my main junction lol. I can't explain it. I can't tell if it was a dream or real, the feeling is exactly the same as real and some times I see may be 3 or 4 frames and I can't stop thinking about it. Then I get the feeling my whole life is a movie and some times my player skips around. Know what I mean or am I not really clear?

[thunderbear]

Ive had that exact feeling before. My pdoc says its a form of dissociation.

[shezbut]

I get that sensation every couple of weeks, myself. It has that same psychic type feel to it, but it's not quite the same as a deja vu. Dissociation makes sense to me.

[eskielover]

Depersonalization is when it's like you are watching yourself in a movie....but you are still right there watching.

Dissociation is when you completely leave & don't even see yourself doing something.......

After I went through a trauma about 8 years ago, I started having those depersonalization feelings.....it was a scary feeling because I could hear myself answer someone asking me a question....but I couldn't figure out how I knew what to answer because I had no idea what the person really asked me. When it happens now & just go silent & head for home ASAP....I wasn't living alone then like I am now. About 1 year after the trauma....I ended up getting into 2 rear end accidents going home from the outpatient hospital I was going to.....I am so afraid living alone to ever be stuck out & away from home when it happens after that experience.

[-jimi-]

Sometimes I plain forgot that I'm out and about, so I sort of wake up and realize what I'm doing and that I'm not just home. I rarely manage to shake the full reality feeling into that kind of situation so it more feels like I really am home and what I'm seeing is through the eyes of a remotely controlled robot.

Then I have had flashes of familiarity, because sometimes when you look at something it evokes a memory that has been dormant because not used. The problem is I have had those flashes but almost instantly realized those are not MY memories, because those things happened before I was born.

[IndieVisible]

Wow I had no idea what I experience also crosses over to more extreme episodes! It's also reassuring this is not so rare or hard to understand. I was sure I couldn't explain it the right way but you folks definitely are right on top of it!

These feelings for me seem soo real as it if really happened! I understand that every thing is merely a chemical reaction in the brain. Every thing, sight, sound, smell, memory, thinking, etc. It never ceases to amaze me how even when the brain temporarily breaks even for a nano second what the effect/reaction is. It's amazing how real our inner selves we feel is nothing more then a freaking chemical reaction in the brain! Doesn't it make you wonder sometimes what is real and what is not? Am I seeing every thing the same way you are? Are you even really there? Or am I? Is this all some sort of illusion? What really defines reality if it's nothing more then a chemical reaction?

Thanks!