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Either something is getting worse or I am noticing things more. Each week is like a roller coaster ride. I'll try to remember the last few days to illustrate:

Thu: Exercised before seeing therapist. Felt so good that I agreed to continue therapy instead of canceling like I had originally planned. Was very positive about improving some interpersonal relation issues through therapy

Fri: Felt terrible. Thought I made a terrible irrevocable mistake by continuing therapy, etc. Exercised and felt o.k. again.

Sat: Felt awful all day. Tried to work and accomplished nothing. Bought some bread at a health store.

Sun: Felt shaky and paranoid. Couldn't eat the bread, because it smelled like incense and that made me think somebody might have poisoned it or cast spells on it. I took a nap and felt a little better

Mon: Felt horrible, dizzy, nauseated, depressed. Exercised and felt hopeful and normal again.

Tue: Feeling in-between. I hope to exercise later today.

I have always felt like the exercising is the only thing that keeps me from being depressed, but it seems much more extreme than it used to feel. These anxiety attacks and the shakiness and nausea. Also I can't remember how to spell words and do things twice whenever I'm depressed.

I am getting a check-up near Christmas with a doctor. Thanks for reading if you did

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I'm glad you are getting a check up. That will rule out many things that may be causing your problems. But with mental health some weeks can feel like you are on a roller coaster. It's good that therapy went well for you. It's a good place to work out issues.

I admit I'm jealous of your ability to stick to your exercise regimen. Keep it up. That should really help with your mental health.

You have mentioned your troubles with words, spelling, and memory. Have you changed meds? I call myself 'word dumb' as I experience this and figure my meds have made me drop at least 10 IQ points.

It's possible your meds can be tweeked to counteract this. Doing so may also improve your mood.

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Originally Posted by rcat

I admit I'm jealous of your ability to stick to your exercise regimen. Keep it up. That should really help with your mental health.

You have mentioned your troubles with words, spelling, and memory. Have you changed meds? I call myself 'word dumb' as I experience this and figure my meds have made me drop at least 10 IQ points.

It's possible your meds can be tweeked to counteract this. Doing so may also improve your mood.

Thanks @rcat I don't take any meds, so my IQ drop is all natural I'm getting close to 50, so maybe some of it is simply "senior moments", but I definitely feel sharper after I exercise.

BTW the reason I don't take meds is that antidepressants prevented the exercise from making me feel better. They didn't make me feel better, and they took away the only natural remedy that was working for me - exercise.

The rollercoaster worries me though. My life has always been simply surviving from one exercise high to the next, but the ups and downs seem a little more extreme now. Sometimes I wonder if the constant exercising is creating addiction problems and I might be experiencing withdrawal. IDK

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Originally Posted by rcat

I admit I'm jealous of your ability to stick to your exercise regimen.

For me the trick is to do it every day. Also, I always do the cardio for long enough that I get the runner's high. It takes me about 60 minutes on my exercise bike. I don't do much except my exercise bike and stretches. Also I do some back exercises once a week to help align things in my back. I'm trying to do some more well-rounded exercises because some of my muscles are very weak and others are more strong and this is not good for my knees. I don't look like I exercise at all unfortunately LOL

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Originally Posted by gayleggg

I'm glad you are getting a check up. That will rule out many things that may be causing your problems. But with mental health some weeks can feel like you are on a roller coaster. It's good that therapy went well for you. It's a good place to work out issues.

Thanks, @gayleggg