[the sad queen]

as usual i disappear suddenly, not sure why i just stop checking specific things/sites...etc without reason just feeling inside saying no.
im not regular poster here anyway cause i dont usually have something to say or even find right reply to everyone post
anyway, i like coming sometimes to share my life update, you dont need to read because it might be depressing and long i just want to write here.

- so i noticed now that some years passed, during start of September to later i usually get depressed. might be because its month i left the country i loved and lost some of my stuff as i couldnt take them all. they are silly stuff just toys, magazines...etc im old and dont really have time for all toys but i hate losing my stuff even if it's useless thing i end up crying and never forget, even now writing about that and remembering made me cry. its also time when college close/will start which i dont really like, stuck in with no way to change or leave and my parents want me to get high grades.

- my brother seems terribly annoyed from army service which he's almost done from and luckily took it for 1 year only, he became more careless than before and broke our hard drive which had all of our files, i've back up for most of files but this also annoyed me more, and he hit my guitar with heavy thing and threw stuff on more than before which could have broke it or cut strings.

- i've always wanted plaid top ok that's silly but i did want one, its either expensive or regular style. my mom showed me picture for one with pretty good style, so i thought she would buy, but she decided not to buy now so it might get out of stock till she thinks about it.

- now trying to start blog at last for things i write, art, reviews...etc but im having issue with template i really prefer making my own as it will be more special and as i want than free template, but programs usually needs a lot of HTML fixes after making template. and i don't have extra money to ask professional coder.

so these increased my depression at this time, i cried for two days and still crying sometimes. my mind lagging a lot and my concentration became more bad now.

im enjoying my time now on virtual life because they are more cheerful without all these life issues silly or serious. i know living in dreams wrong but i'm honestly sick of myself getting depressed from little things and usually bad life events

[Skeezyks]

[healingme4me]

Welcome back

Good luck on your quest for the ultimate template!